Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I'm in the midst of a trauma...

 Christ I'm Confused I Don't Know I Don't Get It I shall warn you , NOW...I'm not in the greatest of moods.

          'Halloween,' is ONE of me flavorite seasons! BUT- due to a few circumstances, I'm a bitter , medium - aged biotch! 

          Last week, our WATER was shut off for a few , LONG days. I found , myself, embarrassed and frightened. They restored it, Sat., due to my Childrens dad and an old Friend. NOW, I H-A-D to Promise their Dad, I'd pay him back, as soon as I got The ONLY $$ I would have, for the week, as it is our CHILD SUPPORT. {as I git weapy } it was ALL we'd HAVE, and, I have NO FOOD, to feed our Cats??!!!

          " " BY THE WAY, 'MOTHER NATURE', HIT, DURING THE WATER OUTAGE!! " "   i WAS A hAPPY  TROLLE'! n-o-t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

           i SMOKE!   It appears, I shall have 12 ciggies, to hold me , untill , Monday:(   LMAO- at LEAST , Mother Nature, has gone back to sleeping, for the rest of the month.

            Allow me to add to this, a bit later. I'm having a mind block. "CLEARLY, I REMEMBER , PICKING ON THE,LITTLE Angry  Sinister  No  GIRL, SEEMED A HARMLESS, LTTLE FUCK!" DADDY DIDN'T GIVE AFFECTION, AND, THE GIRL, WAS SOMETHING, THAT MARILYN WOULDN'T W-E-A-R!"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""   SEE WHAT i MEAN!





Monday, October 15, 2007

'Emenence Front.'

"Why don't you come and join the party, Dressed to Kill?!"

     Strange first line, do you NOT agree? lol-

           This day, many things are toppeling through my mind. Some, quite nifty, SUM, kinda bogus!  Spinning 3D FrankensteinI git kinda whacky, this time of Year:):)-   As the seasons emerge, the changes, continue to bring about, alter kinds of moods / thoughts / ETC.!  Shit, it's all about CHANGE! ANYHOW-   as my time continues to progress, WAY, Cool things, are happening in my existance.  The Girls, seem to have begun a resound year, at school. EVEN BETTER!, we continue to make GREAT progress, within our family ways, connects, LOVE! I watch them , finding solace and security, within our Castle / lives! THIS- makes me elated. Cuz-  -  -- I HELPED! Vampire . YES, I'm becoming , someone, whom I Wished to be, long ago, YET- Never thought I could muster??!!! { don't git it twisted! i'm still a coloureful weirdo! } BUT- my heart and soul, have been , constantly excercising, and the more I put 'em to work, for the RIGHT reasons, the STRONGER I am becoming.

          To be, Quite honest, I'm not so sure, WHY?!!  My leg and back, are in GRAVE discomfort. I HAD a friend, whom hooked me up with some relief, but, she seems to have kicked me to the curb, on that side. SOOOoooooo, one would THINK, I'd begin the downward spiral?!!  Fact of the matter, it pisses me off so much , { the pain } that I just git feistier. THANK GOD!

              This weekend, was a prominent joy! Many blessings, came our way, and the Girls and I, spent Quality time, snuggling, and happy! The weather, round here, is begining to dip into the chillies, and we marveled, in wraps of blankies and love, whilst watching inspirational flicks on the tube. We nibbled, snuggled, and , EVEN had our comode fixed, with the help of their Daddy! The little bugger, even hooked the Cherubs up, with a phenominal, 'French Toast Breakfast!  It's kinda spookie, he, took TWO DAYS, from his hectic life, and prepared his succulent , Chicken, HOMEmade Soup! { He did this at HIS house.} HOWEVER, he toted it all the way to OUR house, to share with our Children! LEMME TELL YA... Megan has, just about killed the entire vat!!!!!!!! Ashley 'Peach Pitt', won't touch it??!!! { she's QUITE picky!}               NOW- the Girls and I, have been relying on a bucket, for , close to THREE WEEKS, in order to flush our troubles away! And it makes me giggle my ass off, as , " " when its brown , flush it down" " arrives, and the bucket is taking a MUCH, Needed nap! LOL Bathroom  Tee -Hee...

LIFES' SIMPLE PLEASURES...

                   I happen to be, a wee, bit leary, though. During the hours, after he left, he called, like, 5 times. Periodically, of course, BUT... , and I am wondering, IF, he aches for the family way, as much as WE DO??!!! There's a lot of shit, about us, that we ARE going to lock horns about! He's , as MUCH of a control freak, as I AM! AND- neither one of us, are gonna back down , very easily!!!!!!!!!!!! YO!, I'll give it a shot, BUT- 'tis NOT gonna be easy 4 me! No  Road Rage !!  I've gone through TOO much, somewhat alone, to have me rug adjusted! justtellin'ya-

              "we had love, at 6 A.M., yesterday morning... he woke me up, with a freezing hand on my nipple..."

          I'm not , quite sure, whom adored the commune , MORE? he or me... Though I gotta tell Ya, as , ALWAYS, we "FIT ", DE-lightfully!

 

                   As I grew up, my family, was not as kindred, as I would have liked. Two, of my flavorite shows, was, 'The Waltons', and 'Little House.'       TRADITION...IS, one of THE , Most Beautiful , POWERFUL,Family traits, I have ever studied! My family, was riddled with power tripps, vindictiveness, and solidarity , { not the cool kind! } I WISH, to instille virtues and MEANING, a Memorable part, of MY Childrens'  "Childhood." SHIT, Alan and ""I"" have plagued them with ENOUGH bullshit! 'Tis my TURN, to enhance the L-O-V-E! And, Ya wish to know , sumthin'. they are begining to RADIATE! The little Cherubs, are attracting GOOD vibes and recognition, from Friends, as well as," THEMSELVES! " DO NOT FALL OVER!,  but the parental units, are somewhat pleased with ME, as well!  whoknew...

                I went for a walk, at 6:40 A.M., this morn.! It was brisk and BEAUTIFUL. NOPE, it wasn't 4 drugs , nor beer:):)- 'twas 4 "cigs!" STILL- I felt, More alive, than I could have imagined. GOD, provided me a chance,to touch base with my neighbor, whos MOMMIE, isn't feeling well. THIS, provided me , with a SINCERE opportunity, to offer my love and support, which, TODAY- I can ACTUALLY provide. Egg Painting  Easter Lilies . It's a FANTASTIC realization! I'm not ONLY , talking the stuff, BUT- Today, I am capeable of walkin' IT!    PLEASE, don't forget to love yourselves, when it's YOUR TURN TO!

             





Saturday, October 6, 2007

I HAVE ' FAITH, ' YET I DOUBT.

 Christ I'm Confused Question MarkI'M NOT , QUITE SURE, IF YOU CAN, MAKE, A-N-Y , SENSE OF THIS BLOG IN ME BOOK!

          SINCE, 'THIS,' PORTAL, IS ONE OF ME ' ' ONLY, ' ' WAYS OF GETTING THINGS OUT , I AM "GOING TO GIVE IT A TRY! " { SO FAR, SO GOOD:) }

           I WAS ASKED, THIS EVENING , IF , I BELIEVED IN , 'MAGIC?!'   I RESPONDED, "YES."  " " TELL ME , ALL YOUR THOUGHTS ON , GOD?!!" ""AM I VERY FAR, NOW?"  I FEEL, THAT I'M GETTING NEARER/ FARTHER.

           BOTTOM LINE, IS, I LENT MY SONS' DADDY, A COUPLE OF BUCKS, WHOM 'SAID, ' HE'D RETURN IT TO ME, AS WELL AS, TAKE ME TO WORK WITH HIM, " " WEDNSDAY! " " WELL- 'THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN.

              { THE BEATLES, ARE JAMMIN' , NOW. } YA'LL KNOW, I , ROB PETER TO PAY PAUL, IN THE FIRST PLACE. HOWEVER, DURING OUR , 'CHURCH,' SERMON, I WAS GUIDED TO DO WHAT, ALL, IT TAKES, TO ASSIST A BROTHER !!  

                                                 ALLOW ME TO SHORTEN THIS, FOR , IT'S 2:46, A.M., AND I AM HAVING DIFFICULTY, SEEING, LEST, 'THINKING!'

                DURING, THIS EVENING, I FOUND, SOMETHING , WITHIN MYSELF, THAT I CAN, IN "NO" WAY , EXPLAIN ! IN-FRIGGIN' -DEED, I AM ONE WARPED , MUDDER FLUCKER!  HOWEVER, I CONTINUE TO LOCATE, IN-ESCAPEABLE " " FACTS,  " " THAT, PROVIDE ME WITH ON-GOING HOPES! I, AM, ACTUALLY, A BAND ON THE RUN! " " IF," " HE HAS TAKEN THE $$ AND RUN IT INTO HIS ARM,...I, HAVE PONDERED , WHAT THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH THIS!!

             P-L-E-A-S-E, DO NOT GIT ME WRONG!! I, "WAS," A 'MASTER,' OF DECEPTION!!!!!!!!  I, PULLED THE WOOLIES OVER, T-O-O, MANY OTHERS' EYES!  TODAY, 'THIS DAY,' I HAVE " " NO, " " DESIRE TO PLAY THAT TRAIGHT, AGAIN! THE SCAREY PART, 'IS,' ONE , ACTUALLY 'THINKS,' THEY GOT IT GOIN' "ON??!!!" 'BALDERDASH! " I, -DID!- FACT OF THE MATTER, 'IS,' I'M NOT THAT BURNT, TODAY!!:):) ;)-

            OH!, I AM CERTAIN, HE SHALL COME THROUGH WITH SOME , THOUGHT OUT, FANDANGLE TALE!!!!!!!!!! STILL, " " THIS," " TIME, IT FALLLS ON DEAF EARS / SOUL / AND HEART! " " ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' HELP? ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ', "SURE ," I WILL! YET- "NOT," UNTILL, HIS MUFFINS, WISH TO EXTEND, TOWARD , "HIS," WORTH. !!!!!!!!

           I, DO 'NOT,' WISH TO JUDGE, "LEST THOU BE JUDGED!" YET, I'VE ALLOWED, 'WAY,' TOO MANY , UN-called for, ASS / SOUL BEATINGS, IN MY LIFE!! "TODAY," I AM SIMPLY, 2 TIRED! I'M A HUMAN , 'NOT,' A BICYCLE!  { 2 TIRED :) -}
                     

 

                ELISSA / ZIGGE / SCHIAVONE',
I, ADORE YOU!  MOTHER GAIL, AS WELL DO , I , YOU!  I REQUIRE SOME, "SOUND," SLEEP.

               I, AM NOT PURRRRRRRFECT! THERE, STILL LIES A LOT OF WORK YO BE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  YET, I ACHE, AS DEEPLY, AS THE RESTOF "US!"                PEACE, BE, UNTO...

 

 Spinning 3D Frankenstein  Spinning 3D Jack-o-Lantern  Spinning 3D Werewolf  Black Kitty   Witch Cauldron  Vampire  Werewolf I, SUPPOSE, I SHALL ALWAYS, BE TURNING, AROUND!

 

P.S.- HAPPY , HEALTHY, HALLOWEEN!





Tuesday, October 2, 2007

MY FAITH HAS SEEN ME THROUGH!

 Ghost Monster Carving    'TIS A WONDERFUL BEGINING , TO THIS DAY. I AM A VERY FORTUNATE FREAKAZIOD / WOMAN!! 

        TODAY, MY ASHLEY, GITS HER SCHOOL PICTURES TAKEN. THE 'LORD,' GAVE ME LOVE IN MY HEART / SOUL, TO PRIMP HER , WONDERFULLY :)   I COULD TELL, SHE FELT , AS SPECIAL, AS SHE IS!

        MEGAN, WHOS PICS, WILL BE TAKEN, DAY AFTER. WELL, SHE WAS FEELING A BIT CAST ASIDE. SO- I NURTURED HER, TOO!!  WHEN MY BABIES, DEPARTED FOR SCHOOL, THEY LOOKED AT ME, WITH THESE LOVING EYES, OF HOPE, SECURITY, AND HAPPINESS. I DON'T THINK, I HAVE EVER FELT SO COMPLETE?!!  WE MAY NOT BE FILTHY RICH, BUT, HEAVEN KNOWS, WE GOT IT GOING "ON!"

         MY SONS' DADDY, ELTON, AS I WROTE, IS HANGIN' AROUND FROM TIME 2 TIME. I'M TAKING IT , V-E-R-Y EASILY, { BEST I CAN } , AND , SIMPLY BEING A 'FRIEND!'  YOU KNOW ME, I TEND TO WISH TO GIT ALL "WISHY-WASHY," AND , HAVE THE URGE TO PUSH THE L-O-V-E SHIT, TO THE LIMITS.  { SO FAR, SO GOOD }  I'M JUST HERE 4 HIM! WHAT ALL OCCURS, WILL OCCUR, BUT, FOR NOW, HE JUST HAS TO GIT HIS FEET ON THE GROUND, AND  TAKE IT SLOW, SINCE , HE'S FRESH OUTTA PRISON. THE MAN, HAS EVERY LEGAL, EAGLE, BREATHING DOWN HIS BACK. "I," SHOULD ""NOT,"" BE ANOTHER!

        MATTER OF FACT, THE POSSIBILITY , EXISTS, THAT HE WILL PICK ME UP, SO AS TO ASSIST HIM ON A PAINTING JOB, HE HAS AQUIRED, E-A-R-L-Y, TOMMORROW MORNING. { IF, IT IS GODS' WILL, IT'LL HAPPEN! } YESTERDAY, AS HE EXTENDED THIS OPPORTUNITY, HE SAYS TO ME, "YOU GOT SOMETHING ELSE TO WEAR, THAN THAT KINDA STUFF?"         I REPLIED, " YEPPERS, I HAVE THE PURRRRFECT OUTFIT!!"  Blowing Bubble 

             { JUST BETWEEN YOU & ME, I CURLED MY HAIR, "YESTERDAY," SO I'D LOOK PRETTIER .}

         I HAVE, ALREADY, FIXED UP THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE, FIT FOR ST. HALLOWS' WEEN! IT MAKES ME GIGGLE, AND SMILE, FOR, I HAVE BEEN COLLECTING THE GARB, FOR A FEW YEARS, NOW, AND , IT'S QUITE ALL OURS!  GRANTED, WE DON'T HAVE INFLATED , HUGE , GLOWING ATTRACTIONS! BUT- IT IS , VERY NICE, AND WE APPRECIATE IT. THE SAME GOES FOR OUR "CHRISTMAS " DECOURE'  ! AS THE YEARS GO PAST, WE ADD A SMIDGEN MORE, AND , AS WE DO, WE BUILD MEMORIES, "NOT," JUST MATERIAL, COMMERCIAL BULLSHIT. WE MAY NEED A FEW , NEW LIGHTS, BUT...

               " " LIFES' SIMPLE PLEASURES / TREASURES! " "

         THIS YEAR, I HAVE SECURED ALL THE NECCESSITIES / PAPERWORK / DR.S' ATTENDS, FOR THE GIRLS, AND, ACTUALLY, GOTTEN THEM TO THEIR PROPER NEEDS :) THE SCHOOL YEAR, HAS BEEN OFF TO A 'GOOD START!' MY CHILDREN, HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH FANTASTIC TEACHES / SCHOOL DISTRICT! AND, I AM MAKING SOME COOL PROGRESS, IN TIGHTENING MY WAYS OF GUIDING THEM, AS WELL AS, FOCUSING ON WAYS TO ENHANCE THEIR LEARNING. I'M NOT SUCH A GEEK, WHEN IT COMES TO THAT, THESE DAYS. I, AM GRATEFUL!

         I MUST PREPARE, TO GO TO THE STORE,NOW, SO, I SHALL CONTINUE ON MY WONDERFUL MOOD, A BIT LATER. THANK YOU, FOR BEING THERE, FOR ME TO SPILL MY THOUGHTS AND HEARTFELTS!!  I, SINCERELY HOPE, THAT, ONE DAY, THIS BOOK WILL BE PUBLISHED, , BUT- M-O-R-E ,SO, THAT WHAT YOU READ, WILL PROVIDE YOU, WITH THOUGHTS , FEELINGS, AND SECURITY, THAT NONE OF US, ARE ALONE!  THERE IS, " " ALWAYS " " HOPE AND PROGRESS, AS YOU CAN PLANELY SEE. 

                                   I LOVE YOU.      PEACE BE UNTO... All My Love  Morphings Lips  Kiss With Hat  Blowing A Kiss 2