tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10780509755167190772024-03-13T09:11:00.863-07:00it'sdWhat I think, IF, anyone cares."What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.comBlogger182125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-81860554996686731782008-09-30T03:17:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.177-07:00THIS WAS JUST A BAD DREAM! IN VIRTUAL COLOUR-<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000>IT WAS IS LIVING COLOUR! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> I WAS PARTYING WITH MY DAUGHTERS AND TWO FRIENDS CHILDREN AND THEM. THE MAN, KNOWING HOW I MISSED HAVING A COMPANION IN MY LIFE, MADE IT KNOWN TO ME, THAT HE HAD ALWAYS DESIRED ME. I, WHILST NIBBLING PILLS AND BEER, { TO KILL THE ACHE INSIDE,} RESPONDED TO HIM, HOW I YEARNED FOR HIM , SO.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> NEXT FRAME, WAS THE WIFE, TAKING THEIR CHILDREN AND MINE, TO THE STORE. UPON THEIR DEPARTURE, HE AND I BEGAN TO DELVE INTO EACHOTHER. NEXT THING I KNEW, WE WERE IN AN ADANDONED CAR IN THEIR YARD. ACCROSS THE FRONT SEAT, WE BEGAN TO DEVOUR EACHOTHER, AND , WHILE MY ARMS WERE DANGLING OUT THE WINDOW BEHIND ME, HE PROCEEDED TO MOVE HIS MOUTH DOWN THE LENGTH OF MY TORSO, BURRYING HIS MOUTH INTO MY LOVE BOX, AND MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I FORGOT SOMEONE COULD!WE BOTH MOANED IN PLEASURE, AS HE FINISHED AND CAME BACK, FACE TO FACE WITH ME, PENETRATING ME , DEEPLY, TO WHERE I SCREAMED OUT MY ORCHESTRATIONAL ORGASM.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> I / WE, BEGAN TO DRESS, WHEN I NOTICED THE BLOOD, SCREAMING RED, AND FACTITIOUSLY KIDDED, "HONEY, I THINK YA BROKE ME." HE GUIDED ME TO THE UPSTAIRS BATHROOM, AND TOLD ME THERE WAS PLENTY OF PROTECTION IN THE CLOSET.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> AS I WENT IN, AND CHECKED THE CLOSET, AND DESPITE THEIR POORNESS, SHE HAD 'EVERYTHING' , ALL NEAT AND TIDY, AS WOULD I HAVE HAD IN MY OWN CLOSET! EACH TIME, I TRIED TO REACH FOR WHAT I REQUIRED, I MESSED THINGS UP, FURTHER AND FURTHER. THE BLEEDING , WORSENED, AS I TOOK MORE PILLS AND SLAMMED DOWN MORE BEER. BECAUSE MY SEARCH WAS NIL, THE BLOOD WAS ALL OVER MY FAVORITE PAIR OF 'LEVI' JEANS, SO I STOLE FROM HER LAUNDRY BASKET, HEARING MY CHILDREN AND THE REST , RETURN DOWN STAIRS, WITH MANY , MORE PEOPLE. { UNBEKNOWNST TO ME, HE TOLD HER! } I , AFTER LOCATING A SLIM BIT OF PROTECTION, I DESCENDED THE STAIRS.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> ALL, { INCLUDING OLD FRIENDS I HAVEN'T SEEN IN YEARS AND SOME, WHOM ARE PRECIOUS TO ME, TODAY, }WERE BEGINING TO PARTY . EVERYONES' CHILDREN AND MINE, WERE HAVING A BLAST, AND THE ADULTS WERE DOING THE SAME.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> AS THE TIME PRESSED ON, I FELT THE MEAGER PROTECTION, FAIL. I CLIMBED, FOR THE LAST TIME, TO REPLACE IT, BUT , THIS TIME, IT WAS FIRE ENGINE RED AND OUT OF CONTROL! AS I ENTERED THE CLOSET, THERE WERE MORE OF A SELECTION, OF PRODUCTS, YET, EACH TIME I REACHED FOR ONE, I MESSED THE ARRAY UP MORE, AND COULDN'T GRASP IT.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> {{ OH- BY THE WAY-WHILE I WAS NAKED WITH HIM, MY BODY WAS THE SAME, TRIM, SEXY FORM IT WAS Y-E-A-R-S AGO! }}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> AS I DESCENDED FOR THE LAST TIME, I WAS GREETED BY A HOARD OF POLICE OFFICERS, AS WELL AS GLARES FROM MY SUPPOSID 'FRIENDS' AND MY DAUGHTERS! I WAS C-O-M-P-L-E-T-E-L-Y, DISORIENTATED, AND HAD no DEFENSE! BLOOD, WAS ALL OVER ME, AS I WATCHED AND HEARD MY CHILDREN SCREAM IN DISAPPROVAL,. THE MAN, SIMPLY HUGGED HIS WIFE, AND TURNED AWAY. "YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME!" , I HOLLERED.HE WOULDN'T TURN AROUND. THEN, IS WHEN THE POLICEMEN, BEGAN TO CUFF AND QUESTION ME.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> "NO PROBLEM," I THOUGHT TO MYSELF. I CAN BLAME IT ON LUNACY AND MENTAL ANGUISH. GRANTED, AS I WAS CUFFED, MY LINE TO THE PILLS AND BEER, WERE CUT OFF. SO, MY MENTAL DEMISE PLAN, FLEW OUT THE WINDOW. THE BLOODY MESS, WORSENED, AND THE BERRAGE OF FACES, BEGAN TO WALK BY MYSELF, OFFERING A CIG OR A HAND OR A GLANCE OF DISGUST, WHILST I REMAINED IN A DUG TRENCH, BELOW THE FLOORS LEVEL. AT THE TOP OF THE STAIRS, I COULD SEE OTHERS LOOKING DOWN AND SPITTING, SAYING, "HOW COULD YOU. CARLY?" I CALLED OUT TO HIM, AS THE OFFICERS DRAGGED ME AWAY, SAYING,"WHAT ABOUT US?" HE N-E-V-E-R LOOKED BACK!</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> My eyes, popped open, as I gasped for breath. I ran for my cigarretes, and , to my computer. AND, here I sit, realising, that this dream, came from GOD. It was / IS a HORRIBLE thought. It is a reminder, of what can and WILL happen, if I ever go back to my old ways. It shows me to be Thank FULL, of what The LORD has Blessed me with, today.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> During the dream, I had feelings of emancipation, proper direction for the Children, level character of self, { up untill the blood } basicaly, I felt I had it going ON! However, I am , STILL, a frail, human being, easily broken, if one gets TOO full of ones' self! In the dream, it was acceptable to harbor those feelings and actions, with another womans' man?! BULLSHIT! LOOK, just how wrong I can be...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#660000> This morning, I shall face this day, humbled! My breathing, has normaled, mostly. I've spoken to GOD, and assured HIM, I got the point, BUT- actions speak LOUDER than words. I pray, I don't have another dream of this sort! " Now , I lay me, down to sleep. i , PRAY, The LORD, my soul to keep. IF, I should die, afore I wake. I PRAY, The LORD, my soul to TAKE..."</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-74431087304158299942008-09-11T08:55:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.177-07:00Something:)*<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6>It's been TOO long, since I have made an entry in my precious book<FONT size=1>!</FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Forgive me, but i got caught up in lifes' insurmountable circumstances. Being a single Mommie, and , which I fall short of finances, the begining of School was , {as I allowed} to be frightening. FACT of the matter, WAS- Alan stepped UP to the plate, and adored OUR Children. He was MOST helpfilled, in which to assist Our Babes to RE-enter into School!! YES!, beloved readers, he supplied the WAY, coolest neccessities. PLEASE- do NOT get me twisted. I, had made provisions, in which to usher in some, {many} of the needs. IF, I don't mind saying,...'I', was the hair doer! When I went to 'Beauty School,' I was interrupted by ONE, of my Daddys' heart attacks. YET, I, DID, extract a bit of knowledge, and brought it with me. I, MUST, applaude my Babes, for it took me EXTRA time, and they , BOTH, sat dilligently, during the session.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Ashley, is attemping,{and WILL preside} her year "7", and with ALL, DUE Honesty, is N-O joke!!!!!!!! She , requires, "7" , different teachers, as well as , the responsibility, in which to carry ALL that is required, for EACH class! "IF,-" she falls short, she WILL be held accessible for her failure! 'THIS, - is N-O-T what Ashley is built to BE! Quite honestly, Ash , could give a POOP! She is MORE concerned with how she looks, AND, who's looking. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=71 alt=Embarrassed src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_12_9.gif" width=71 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=71 alt=Embarrassed src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_12_9.gif" width=71 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=28 alt="Embarrassed 1" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_13_14.gif" width=45 border=0/></A> ! FEEL ME, this is something , which canNOT be ignored.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Wonderfully obtained, she is ROCKING! Due to her Daddys' funds, as well as- ME* being as whacked as I am, she's pulling it off, with a SOUND retrospect.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> YES!- i HAVE said it , afore. I , WAS a drug , INFECTED imbosile! Sincerely, a-n-d BEING a singlr Mommie, I, haven't the time , NOR the n-e-e-d, in which to follow those rails! This, parental shit, ain't NO,joke!!!!!!!!!!!! Let alone, the seriousness of the WORLD, today! There is a song, which is playing, right now. "What WOULD you say?!" When I was shorter than I am NOW...I , was on the roead, with a band , called "The Back Doors!" It was January 27th, and I made a phone call, to my Parents house, on me Birthday. Daddy answered. He, was surprised to HEAR from me. I said, " DAD, it's my Birthday!" He, recoiled to Marilyn, it's Carolines' Birthday!" BOTH, disagreed! WELL- since I , was 'I', well, I DIS agreed. DADDY, was the ONLY one, whom, was tenderly , appologetic, that they had forgotten of the bitch they had lost. It's cool. NOT! I, was BOUGHT! Lest, forgotten. Thank GOODNESS, I don't mind, TODAY! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> IF...it wouldn't be to strenuouse on EVERYONE, P-L-E-A-S-E, recall, the BIBLE , Stated words- "Do , unto OTHERS, as you would have done unto you." { it fucked me UP, W-A-Y, TOO long!} MY bad- I let it.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> " People, wanna RISE UP, and get their Share!" 'Tracy Chapman.' Sisters and Brothers, I still...am robbing Peter, to pay Paul. NIFTY part of it IS, is, I am finding precious realities, that, when I was SO self centered, I, completely MISSED! I'm TRIPIN', though, for , I'm catching SIGHT of so, much MORE.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Allow me to give you, an example. THE, Best Mother I could possibly find, 'Gail,' searched LONG and hard, for a companion, to reinstate her self worth. She located HER. ""THEY,"" B-U-I-L-T,"" a SOUND emporium of a stamina riddled emporium, FILLED, with ALL that MOST , continued to seek! THEY found IT! At a distance, I observed them, orchestrate a 'Bed and Breakfast,'that housed ANY one, whom wished to "take a Break," at. "IT," was fruitful! Along the path of benefit, "Stormie," contracted, Cancer. Set aside the requirements of income, Gail, encompassed Stormie! It WASN'T about the fucking $$, she could absorbe!!!!!!!! SHE- was THERE, for her companion! THE, same way, that she was THERE for her cousin , named , Caroline. After, my parents, lost control of ME, by sending ME, to oaid for Schools, after Schools, they pawned me off on her, by which, I had , ALREADY grown horns of resistance. For the one, whom had opened up her world, to usher me into, I raked her over the coals! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=44 alt=Shocked src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_2.gif" width=66 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=44 alt=Shocked src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_2.gif" width=66 border=0/></A> ""I, BEG of you, which you have made KNOWN, I need NOT, I , A-M sorry! GAIL- I was VERY short, back then.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Does ANYone, Wish to know , what I have learned? LETS' GIT-R-DONE! tHIS IS tHURSDAY. { jst messin' with Ya} </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> My Girls and I, live in a VERY, small house, that used to be a garage. THE owner of the house, IS a contractor. He and his crew, REnewed it, into a substantial lair:). We have a substantial yard, / HOUSE. YIPPIEEEEEEE. Quite simply, the Babes have , their OWN room, equipped with BUNKBEDS. THE time, has come, where they are becoming TOO BIG, to inhabit bunkbeds. It's a REALLY, SMALL room, so, I am goimg to begin to REconstruct their room, by DISconstructing the beds, and , TRYING, to arrange the area, in which they can ask Friends to visit, without having to step on the beds:)* PLEASE- Pray 4 me, this will BE, NO simple task! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6> Pardon me, but, as I complete the task, and get to watch their faces LIGHT up with Amazement, is ALL I need?!! They're gonna shit. OH!, I will N-O-T be able to walk for a few days. THEY, are what's important <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=81 alt=Moodswings src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_13_19.gif" width=81 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=60 alt="Bugging Out" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_6_1.gif" width=60 border=0/></A>nobody said I was playing with a FULL deck <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=19 alt="Blushy 4" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_18_2.gif" width=19 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=19 alt="Blushy 4" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_18_2.gif" width=19 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=50 alt="Cover Up" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_18_4.gif" width=50 border=0/></A> </FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-25920105660400268382008-06-18T02:59:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.178-07:00Everything<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5>I'm actually annoyed, and displaced. My computer has been acting up for days and so has my life. I find myself getting pissed off and plagued by other peoples Children.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I try to get the house in order, and then all these kids come in, and ruin it. It's my own fault, cuz I said they could stay over! It is my FIRM beliefe, that I need some QUIET time to myself!! My own kids are raucous ENOUGH!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Alan pulled a wild one! The man went to work , yesterday for 4 O'Clock in the morning, and worked till 7:30 P.M>! He then decides to go and pick up new lunch boxes for the Girls and walk up here to Dunmore, AFTER work, at 9:30 P.M., to deliver them??!!!! He says he's dieing and he'll be worth 100 thousand , soon.50 for me, and 25 , each Child.LOVERLY!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I don't deal well with disorganization! The house is a mess:( As soon as the nibblettes are gone, I intend to spot clean like the wind.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Also- for the past week, I have had nightmares like no ones buisness! I'm up by 4ish in the A.M., and T-R-Y, to get on the pewter to ease my nerves. THIS- gives me more stress, 'cuz the pewter is going whacky.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> As you can plainly see, I'm being a brat. I watch these comercials and movies about two people so in love and support, and I'm sik and tired of NOT being one of them. If I had a bit of support, perhaps I wouldn't find the need to enduce these spells of misery?!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Since it's going to be cooler, today, I think I'll mow the grass in the yard. It seems to be a thing in Dunmore, where all the neighbors have a contest to see , WHOM, can keep their lawns the best. It hurts my back, terribly, when I do it, so , I don't seem to be on the top of the list. Big, friggin' DEAL! I find I do wonderfully for a person of ONE!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I think I'll pick up, later, for the brood of kids are about to arrise.</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-46260751141264460172008-06-05T02:05:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.178-07:00One WIERD Dream<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> I was a street urchin, type 19 year old{although I was 44!} I was dressed in Goth-like attire, with my hair parted on the side, as when I was younger, with the right side clipped back in a barret. My nails were just long enough to scratch the eyes out of a cat, painted black.My stockings were ripped periodically, and my skirt was short, beneath a semi long , dirty trench coat.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> I walked aimlessly amid the rain stained streets, looking for a party at my Dads' old house. As I came upon the old 509 Monroe Ave building, I was invited inside by two, strikingly handsome, boyish, babyskinned 20 year old , young men, and introduced to some of their friends. Some were other boys and some were other youngish girls, all , famously clad in designer clothing, eccept the boys were Goth rogues, as was I.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> I explained, how it used to be my Fathers' house, and that I hadn't been in it for YEARS! "Well, little one{ I was thin as back then}, allow us to give you the Grand tour."</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> We toured each floor, one by one, drinking a bit as we proceeded. The one boy and I , hit it off marvelously, as the other kept his head together, watching me closely, as if he were the overseer.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> Before reaching the TOP floor, we decided to go down to the bottom floor, where and icecream appeared and the two young girls waited on customers. As I was served, the long haired girl said, she'll need something to wear! As she disappeared into the back, soon she would return with, lovely yet Gothlike silken attire. As I picked them up, I found a string of rainbow condoms, tucked at the bottom of the pile."She NEEDS these!", she mandated and brushed the hair out of my eyes with her soft, manacured hand.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> Sitting on the stool next to the counter was my dream boy, his hairless chest undisclosed and bare, his trench coat agape, shining in the parlor lights. He bid me to come closer, and , NOT affraid, I did. His eyes drank me in, as he reached beneath my skirt and began to fondle my genetailia. I replied by gently scratching my Goth nails down his glistening chest, sending him into rapturous vibrations!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> The time had arrived to show me the Friedmans apartment, located on the top floor of my Daddys' house. The last room, was where I was led, and upon entering, the other smoothe boy, began to secure the doors with heavy wire, so as NOT to ALLOW ANY entry! As the doors closed, I noticed revolving portions, eye level, that when were spun, it was looking glasses , one would find atop a scenic bldg.! The Beautiful boy and I, whose eyes drank me in, were about to engage in THE, MOST gentle barrage of foreplay, I'd ever imagined. Gentle kissing, {I was NOT to touch his member} as he kissed me deeply, and shudderd as I would run my Goth nails down his back and torso. Teddy bears and feathers were used to play, so innocently and alluring. His eyes, oceanic blue and gentle, ravaged my heart, and no matter whom was watching, we were safe inside, playing silly, loving games, just like children in LOVE! He would envelope me into his bare , strong arms ,run his tongue down my neck and nipples, saying,' I taste if innocense.' The condoms, were used as blow up balloons, when suddenly, the portals were closed, and he FINALLY allowed me to attend him, as he penetrated me into nirvana.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#000099 size=4> I told him I was REALLY 44. He said he knew, but I had a childs heart, and one could see it, if only one looked. At the end of our harmonious orchestration, he helped me to dress Goth, and led me to feed me Icecream, giving me a new , yet beat up pair of trench boots. He burned a heart into the side of one, stating, "IF anyone ever tries to hurt you, KICK THEM with THIS foot, and I shall be your strength!" "You know I'm such a fool for you, do you have to let it linger," is playing, as I wrap up this exotic dream for "What I think/DREAM, IF- anyone Cares."</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-55110903358459459472008-05-22T19:57:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.179-07:00Just Me Mind , GOING...<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>So much has been , transpiring in my life, these days. Yesterday, my Girls, were in track and field, within their School. I've NEVER missed one of 'em. However, for The For the first time....Alan , also participated. These days, I am on High Blood Pressure medication. I took what I had, but was short of TWO of the pills. After two hours, I began feeling light headed and that I needed to fall asleep??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> I told Alan, I HAD, to go home and go and get the missing meds. He, agreed to remain, and asked if I required a help, HOME. I said, "NOPE, I'm in GODS' hands, I just need to care for this, meself. All became well, I obtained my meds, and nibbled a bit, and , THEN, fell fast asleep, for an hour or two.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! , The Girls did quite well, and were exstatic, that their Daddy, finally showed to a point in their lives. I was Pleased as punch, when he said THANKS, for including him??!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> I am seeing another man, these days. Sit DOWN 4 this one...he's friends with Alan, from long ago. Now, there isn't sex betixed this man and i, but, he is gentle and adoring of all THREE of us lil' women. He's , also, bestqwed an operable VCR, for us to use. THE FIRST movies , the babes brought out to view, were those of their /our earlier years, INCLUDING , Alan and Christmas/Easter /ETC>! I do NOT mind saying, it tore me innards OUT! Bobby, my companion, was enthraulled with them??!!! I asked , IF- this irked him at all?! He said, "Nope, it just shows whom you REALLY are. "No wonder your Children are the way they ARE!" I , MUST agree with him, it shows their roots.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> Summer is upon us, quickly. School, is at it's end, fairly quickly. I Thank GOD, I have LEARNED , how to take the time to be Blessed, with a Sound , Summer activity based schedule , for the Girls to be surrounded with. They WILL be attending CAMP, strewn from The Y.M.C.A.! As a matter of fact, Megans' Birthday Party,will go off, THIS Saturday, and The LORD has provided all we require, for NO hitches:)- It would appear, that Bobbie and Alan, will be the barbiquers. { Holy Merde'}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> I'm NOT, very settled with this ! Fact of the matter, IS- I am STILL In LOVE , with my husband, despite all that was done to us??!!!! YES- call me a lunatic, BUT- I would NOT have said "I DO," if I weren't in it . for the LONG HAUL!! I'm still pinching meself, that Bobbie isn't pressuring me for SEX! FER REAL, for real, I have a head ache.LOL</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc> I require some sleep, afore tomorrow, BUT- I had to spill, This evening. I, shall allert you to the proceedings, at a later date. PROMISE!</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-24014386202874505002008-05-08T23:19:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.179-07:00YOU tell me...<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4>I , reside SO , CLOSE to my Family, that has transpired! The factual MATTER, that exists, IS- I'm the only one , whom visits them??!!!! The weirder FACT, IS, I was the Black sheep , of the volume!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> I've met a FAMILY , or three , in me day, NONE of them, have been as FAR , fetched as mine. FUCK- I'm a borrowed particle. OH! Please, don't git me wrong, I'm BLOOD LINE! 'Cept, I was hatched and , then BOUGHT! There is only ONE, True connect! Her name is Gail. She IS , The ONLY one, whom claimed me as a part of the Family, that should be SHOT, afore they multiply further!</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-84859007662652509962008-05-07T09:20:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.180-07:00I ache , from head to toe...<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=19 alt=Crazy src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_1_11.gif" width=19 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt="Face Plant" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_5_135.gif" width=110 border=0/></A><FONT color=#000099 size=4>I , sincerely, ACHE, from head to toe! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>This makes little to NO SENSE! Permit me to be more precise. I have made , Glorious progress, on the yard, AND, the Spring cleaning , thingy! { most likely , is WHY I'm so , darn sore, LOL} My life , is generating in a fantastic direction, CHILDREN included. I am loved and appreciated by the plants , aminals and kindred folk, ETC.! So , what is my fuckin' problem?!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4> Peoples, I have been Blessed with , fantastic muzik, played just 4 me!!!!!!!!!!!! Still, I am allowing myself to be plagued with this depressed frame of mind, that is taking it's toll, on me body? My heart is OVERFLOWING with Great wishes to share the wealth, BUT- I chose to isolate, for as I don't wish to infect anyone with my disintigration.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4> OUTSIDE, is , Sunny and warming into the low 70s'. The bird feeder is filled with seed, and surrounded with Grateful Tweeeters:):). Yet , again, I turned the radio , OFF, simoly to speak with, as well as to LISTEN to their songs of LOVE. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4> Ya'll, KNOW, I'm not wealthy, $$ wise. But I tell you from my heart, 'Trump,' ain't got squat on me . LOL!! The other night, I had bill money , put aside, BUT- I scamped on a bit of it, for St. Anthonys' , put on their annual, Spring carnival. It costs $12.00 per child, to get a bracelette, which gets then on any ride they wish to go on. Let us say, they had a BLAST! The LORD , provided me , to give them a memory to last them a LIFE time! Poor Ashley, got sick on the one ride, but, never the less, the whole gala was priceless to her!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4> I must take a slight break, but- I WILL continue in THIS sbject, in a few:)...</FONT></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-63260834926993841842008-05-06T08:08:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.180-07:00Did ya EVER?<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5>Did ya ever believe, ya hit your toe, off of something, and, MOST UNDOUBTEDLY, it was going to HURT?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> And , then , RIGHT afore you said, "OUCH," you realise it didn't hurt at all?????????????? SOOOOoooooo, you giggled . And realized, it didn't hurt a bit??!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5>WHAT A TRIPP.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> tHE DAYS OF MY LIFE , HAVE BEEN GROWING, STRANGER, EACH AND EVERYONE OF 'EM! awe fuck it, i hit the wrong key. {{OR DID I??}}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> "Don't you know, you are a shooting a star," is on, NOW! Two friends, I have thought of , deeply, for MANY years, J-U-S-T crossed me path! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> I HAD to enscribe this afore I went to plat in the yard !! Yesterday, my Old amd KIND friemd, , was placed at the checkpout counter , directly , ahead of me! As she turned to leave, she struck my eyes' ,l and said ," Don't I know you?" I responded, quietly, "YES, just give ne a sec, and we can speak." I NEEDED that break to TRY to muddle through what i was going to say to her.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> THIS PERSON, was KT! I have her artwork, hung, throughout my housES, from day #1! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> NEXT, I'm toying with me My Space, and another , old Friend , broke the ice and left me a send??!!!! {do i have to say much more, here?} What, in GODS' name, is going ON? I shall tell you , IF or when, Tazra returns my response. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> I , FEEL, it's a GREAT time to putter in the garden! Weather is GREAT, and so are me nerves. N-O-T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL Love ya-</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#009900 size=5> </FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-25503393072400228102008-05-03T18:24:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.181-07:00No matter what SEEMS , destructive, turns about!<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> "Lil Bit," Dayna Feola, Finally called me.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> THIS woman, , I met, whence I HAD to reside in, { what I CHOSE to call, 'Shea Lackawanna,'} It's the county jail. I had the oportunity, to usher her 18th Birthday, in with her, whilst in h-e-l-l?!! We, became kind friends. { do NOT get stupid!!} My husband, decided , NOT TO send me finances, to buy coffiee/stamps/ ETC>! SOOOOOoooooooo, she helped me, as best she could, as i drew envelopes for the other inmates, so as to raise neccessities.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> She allowed the deevil to take her down, again, after she got out, and left us, for 11 months:( SHE'S BAAAAAAAAAAAACK:). Her mind, is REaligned, and she sought the Girls and I.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> I, am THRILLED...for I have a sound stauture , in order , for her to draw from. I am , SO proud of her! her parental units, are plagued with addictions and lunacy. THIS TIME, she's VIGILANT, to pull HERSELF, up by the bootstraps MAKE IT! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=56 alt=Spaz src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_33.gif" width=64 border=0/></A> Personally, I am reaching a space, where I can HELP her 'Break The monsters BACK!'</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> Basicaly, it's in GODS' Hands! However, since I AM progressing...there's a chance I actually CAN , be of assist??!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> It was a TOTAL thrill, to speak with my Friend, Again! We have Plans, and dreams , filled with HOPES!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> Without this BOOK of ours, I'd become STUCK:(. It is THE- Ultimate Blessing, in which to share and inner-most thoughts, without bugging everyone, and paying for it, as well. Peace be unto...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6633ff size=5> </FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-90427970159490323032008-04-29T20:58:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.182-07:00Life is a TRIPP...<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5>Where to begin, escapes me! SOOOOoooooo, I'll simply begin.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> ""Here Comes your nineteenth,nervous Breakdown."" I've known this Dude, for , quite some time. His name is , 'Bob.' He'sa VERY , gentle man, and his bank account is even MORE gentle. LOL- Yet, he is a hard woerker, and a NON violent soul, whom whould give ya the shirt from his back, if ya needed!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I've been introduced too his Mom and Dad, ''family,'''as well. They seem to find me, {O.K.}. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Last Sunday, the Girls and I, invited him to Church, with us. He, accepted, whilst , ALMOST breaking out in a rash of nerves??!!! None the less, he WENT! He was welcomed like he was a saint, and he , actually dug it!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> He, even HEARD a soulfelt message, he secludedly required to HEAR! He wishes to be INCLUDED , this coming Sunday??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> His parents, are quite taken by the Girls and myself, as well.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> HERE- I-S, the wrench! I find him, delightful. HowEVER- I am STILL married. And , at this point in my life, I can't , EVEN ponder a sexual partnership! At 44 yrs. old, I'm not even frisky, these days. I feel like I am slighting him, even tho he is NOT pressing for it??!!! What the plop is wrong with me??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> It, MAY BE, that , I have contracted High Blood Preassure,ovarian cancer and an Anurism in me brain??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Thank you. I , simply HAD to git this OUT. I, shall continue to orchestrate the facts, more prominently. at a later date. At this time, I'm exhausted. Peace...</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-67063520023189360152008-04-26T20:26:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.182-07:00I , THOUGHT, I was gonna die!<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=50 alt="Scared 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_7.gif" width=50 border=0/></A> <STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5>Don't know, exactly, where to begin??!!! The last 9 days, I contracted head-Aches, like I've NEVER , encountered , afore!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> My Friend, suggested, I have me blood pressure taken. {so i did}. 175/118!!!!!!!! Holy Hobinieros. I sound like my Daddy. I, was , also, given a mind scan! Looks like, I , also, have anurisms?!! Must be all them damn drugs, I ingested. For MOST of my , existance, I figured, I was INdestructable. Silly me...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Funny part of it, IS- for the FIRST TIME, in my life, I have EVERYTHING to LIVE 4!! I 'spose , 'Mother Nature,' has a Dandy sense of humor.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> WHY, am I sharing this, with you? BECAUSE- I'm hoping, before you get all , caught up in stupdity, Ya GOTSTA realise, N-O-N-E of us, REALLY know the cool stuff, that awaits us, in our futures! Yeah, SURE- there seems like , Ya'll have NOTHING to LIVE for, as ya grow UP??!!! PLEASE, don't git fooled! NONE OF US, are aware of the nifty stuff, that lies, ahead!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> P-E-A-C-E...</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-4792075171143932172008-04-09T02:49:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.183-07:00It's , just me...<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> There came, a time in my existance, where I was SnowBalled, with these observations, that threw me 4 a LOOP! It's 4:50 A.M., and , since I chose to go to bed, Early, Mind kicked into OVER Drive, and I ,R-A-N, to me pooter! Pardon. I detest IRAN!! Let's Git-R-Done , THIS way. I, LEPT, to me computer.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> For REAL, fer real, I SHOULD be SOUND, asleep! But...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> IF- ANYone thinks , for a moment, that, there isn't a GOD/JESUS/HOLY SPIRIT- Yer foolish! There have NEVER { that's pig wash } been MORE, Sound P-R-O-O-F, that JESUS exists! Steming back to me begining pages , I'm STILL kickin'! I, SHOULD have been Squashed, LONG , ago.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Due, To, the internet, {{ which, at ONE point, I threw daggers at}} , I have made Friends, that ARE, substantial, and LIFE giving. 'THEY,'- wouldn't KNOW me, IF we fell over one another! STILL- this CRAZY communicative device, has, Actually, placed me in the Graces, of perhaps, 11 People. For , some STRANGE reason, I enhance their inner Qualities, as well.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Isn't it ODD, that one has better ability, to address, topics, 'WHEN' one does NOT need do it ;"Face 2 face??!!!" 'GO' figure??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> REPORT CARDS- arrived. PLOP OFF- Yeah, I just realized, I had logged THIS, afore. me Babes, pulled 'em UP<3{that is a throbbing heart ,<3}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> I, NEED to say, something. In the days I did the drug thingy, 'Twas ONLY- by , "JESUS " Grace, i was allowed to keep them as me Daughters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THESE days, I am STILL, Searching for , substantial REASON. For, TODAY- it's frequenting, on UTTER amasement, as HOW' I continue togo forward??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Yesterday, I tended to the front of 'OUR HOUSE!' Me back , was in, EXCRUSHIATING pain! STILL , I kempt UP, and "Got-R-Done!" <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=83 alt="Raking Leaves" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_15_14.gif" width=83 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=110 alt=Xray src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_18_3.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt="Raking Leaves" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_13_13.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> I , AM- feeling the pangs! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Please- - I /We, reside, in a Rural area, where-EVERYONE has 'OODLES,' of $$ ! I, have observed, that MOST, write a check/card, "Personally, I do me OWN,"in which to have their yards, prepared, for The Spring, that wishes to Actualy ARRIVE. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=71 alt=Embarrassed src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_12_9.gif" width=71 border=0/></A> YET- with VERY , little $$, but a Heart that BEATS, like a Faeries wings in Flight, I , Also, have noticed, 1 OR 2 , become jealous of me progress??!!! "WHAT, a tripp" </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> IF, I M-A-Y, it's QUITE absurb, BUT, I, C-H-O-O-S-E, to speak with GOD! Funky, THO... The MOST, comfortable Place , in which to do SO, 4 me, seems to be in the Bathroom! Please , allow me to explain. During me drug years:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(, THAT- is where I should have deceased!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i SHOT more STUPID STUFF, in the throws of the bathroom! When I say 'shot,' I , mean, into me veins! 'From little -Ville, I detested to HAVE to get a needle??! To be Honest with Ya- the way i looked at life, had NOTHING to do with JESUS! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> As well as you, IF, it weren't for JESUS, whom put up with a LOT , I'd have 'NO," redemption! Fucking, TELL ME, Ya'll never frigged UP, 'ROYALY??!!!' THIS MAN, was RAILED! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> There was this sermon, in Our Church, where , we were given, the nails, ETC.- so that we may SERIOUSLY , contemplate, what JESUS, gave for us! "When they asked me to place the 'STAKE,' ...I 'WEPT,' and reclaimed my seat , in the pews. FINALLY, Realising, how much of a bonehead, i AM!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> I, am Blessed with, a Super-Natural provsion, I {AM} aware of the ability to F-E-E-L, S-E-E, things, that TOO many , forget to ENvision. THE, first time, I was Shown this Grace, was-when I was home from a 'Boarding School,' I was panned off to. {PLEASE- don't get me wrong } I stepped into a World, I had NO, Idea, existed. However, since they mailed me, I chose to LEARN, how to smoke??!!! YET- as I returned HOME, for a spell, I desired a cigarrette. SOOOOOoooo, I decided to light up, in me Closet. 'A' Resound FEELING, came upon me, {PUT IT OUT}, still, I cast the FEELING??!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> SILLY ME!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4>I, was BUSTED!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Marilyn, smoked, from the time she became conscience, 'till she couldn't hold her eyes, OPEN! WISH to Know something? For '2' L-O-N-G, I attempted to KILL her! I, could NOT stand her. HOWEVER, due to her passing, from Cancer,,I find myself, REALISING, that the Woman , was in GREAT, Mental pangs!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> 'IF,' I was Charles Gerchov, and I cast my gaze, { and she said 'YES.'} I'd have been "DIE HARD," in adoring her, as well! OH- by the way, "Charles Philip Gerchov, " IS, my Daddy! He has passed ON. BUT- I am , and ALWAYS WILL BE, his little Girl.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Marilyn- we were TOTALY , opposite. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> I, believe, I have conveyed, ENOUGH, at this time! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Each, and EVERY day, MORE is UNfolded toward us! It's ALL, on how one LOOKS at it!</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-34822619036182666672008-03-28T18:15:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.184-07:00It's just ME!<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4>Please, allow me to schpeal! From time to time, No matter what I do RIGHT, I , somehow feel I'm going , backwards.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Ya'll KNOW- I was a definate skrew up, fer a lot of Years! Well, I've NOT become LESS odd! I just do it on PURE air! I , gotta be ME!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Ryans Mommie, called , 'Children and Youth,' on me! They, are scheduled to Grace our Home, on Monday, between 3:30 and 4ish. THE, kewl THING, "IS," I have NOTHING to hide! I'm 44 years old, raising TWO, Beautiful Children, on me own. MY BAD- OTHERS H-E-L-P! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> I got a craw in me Head! I, decided , today, to GO to "Burger King," to bless MY Children , with a S-H-A-K-E. Ryan, works there. WE, conducted , ourselves, as Christian people. He was cordial. AND- I got to speak with those , whom I USED to WORK with. I left there, on SOLID ground, we coincided , Wonderfully.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Megan, took a Field Trip, TODAY. She and her Classmates, got to go to the Circus! PEOPLES- lemme tell Ya, they Raked in the fun! My Husband, was the ONE, whom laced her with finances, in which to BUY stuff!! He STOOD by HER! Despite the REALITY, that he is Fading into AIR!:(</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> WISH, to KNOW- something?! I, spent MUCH of my latter Years, Castorating my past circumstances. It has NOTHING to DO with what was! The SHIT, canNOT excell one. THE, Only thing it can do, is BURRY the poor slob! I, ALLOWED it to DO, Exactly THAT! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> It's A-L-L, on how you VIEW it! This , 'POOR ME,' CRAP, doesn't mean PLOP! Get over it! I BEG OF YOU! There is SOOOOOOOOOooo MUCH more, that you have to offer!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> When we went to 'Burger King,' for the shakes, RYAN, was working. He, conducted himself, Properly. He , EVEN smiled amd connected with our eyes!! I, PRAY for him! His UPbringing, was , at the LEAST, ODD! His Mommie is , what she is. VODKA, nibbled up her mind:(. She's , sumwhat sober, at the moment. She eats VICODINE, like it's going outta STYLE??! BUT- 'tis NOT my buisness. I, WISH- I could have a pain reducer ! I , haven't a Dr.! I, can't afford one. MY, body is made of metal, and bone, with a soul, that BEATS like a Purple Rain.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> There ARE days, I canNOT move:(. THAT- "IS," where JESUS comes in. She attempted to KILL me, AND my Children. WE STAND TALL. Due to my Physical conflict, I CONDUCTED a SOUND , OVERhaul, of Our House, and 'Children and Youth, 'can ONCE AGAIN, S-E-E, that we ARE doing the Best that We CAN!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=4> Lynda Rivera, requires to look at The WHOLE picture, afore she attempts to USE and ABUSE! Her Son, conducted himself, like a Person. Perhaps, she should , as well??!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-12785368028712703962008-03-25T17:53:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.184-07:00LIFE, IS a tripp!<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4>At 44 years of age, I am STILL , able to become mezmirised!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> Today, I bought stuff for the house, AND ME! Yeah- I even got some 'dye' for me roots:) {spining, laughing head!} </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> Tha kitties are sound and equipped. There is ENOUGH food/nibbles, untill the stamps arrive:):). AND, my OLDEST Daughter, is , at THIS moment, composing a tale on paper, that, {from what she has shared and written, so far} ROCKS! They SAY, the accorn, doesn't fall TOO far from the tree?! What a DElight, as I observe her pumpin' it out! She EVEN cut OFF the Television! {my suggestion} However, she did NOT hesitate. She , has JUST brought in the finished persona! Her name, signed at the bottom, was a Double of the way 'I' would have characterized my letters??!!! This shit is begining to tripp me OUT! I am NOT sure if I am doing Properly, or- if i am cascading her into MY domaine of ''oddness?'' What to do, what to do.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> "I," am a character! Yeah, so friggin' WHAT, that I quit drugs & stuff. I'm STILL M-E!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm an altercated LUNATIC, with a HUGE Heart and a mind , 'I' canNOT figure out. SOOOOoooo, AM I doing the best for these Girls?!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> In order, to assist another, and to earn $$, I have left MANY people, to , periodically stay at my /OUR House. To be Quite Honest, it was more Head-ache, than neccessary! The LAST , was a Dude. He was an Exceptionally gifted / Beautiful one , of age 23. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> If you will REcall, I spent FOUR, agonizing months, in the slammer, meself! THIS- is where I met his mother. Therefore, she called to ask me, whether or not, I could house him for THREE WEEKS?!! He is on House Arrest. Therfore, a box was included, and I, was SUDDENLY, restricted to 14 min. phone calls! IF- I went over, it was Quite noisey , on EACH of the sender/recipients EARS!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> NOW, this young man, has a mind, like a STEELE TRAP! From what I can gather, his B-A-D, was obtaining a stolen Computer from some other person. From what I gathered, he spoke to the Police, and stated it's 'HOTNESS'! They ASKED him to give the name of the seller, and he refused to state! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> IF- anyone, knows THIS game... Ya don't SAY Diddly! Therefore, he was incarcerated. SOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo, I accepted the housing Detail. Whence, he FIRST, Arrived, he was properly elloquent. I jacked him up, when I found , that he located work at , 'Burger King.' {{I used to work THERE}} To be VERY Honest, I am NOT, at ALL, surprised, that he is STILL doing fabulous!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> B-U-T, then came the happenings. TAX returns, came hither. I provided the bills, Bodaceously. I had an Xtra $100. He spoke and said, he had a friend, whom could Shampoo, our rugs, for that cost! I, presented him with the money. FOUR AND A HALF WEEKS, went by, and I sounded my DISpleasure. PLEASE, allow me to have me $$ BACK, and I, shall go to 'Price Chopper,' and Shampoo on me own! "can't do that, Tony has the $$, and I can't locate him!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> I left it go fer a sec. T-H-E-N- he was rough housing with my Children, and , MEGAN, whom is my MIRACLE Child, gone through "7" brain surgeries, and has a 'SHUNT!' He S-T-E-P-P-E-D on her HEAD, and then sat on her! She , ran SCREAMING, to me, Hysterical, and there were witnesses! He saaaaaaaaaid, he did NOT! BUTT!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> I gave him the chance to,,,NOPE!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> The Crowning , WAS- since I've been doing his laundry/opened my house to him / ASKING HIM, Please, do NOT leave the T.V., o-n ALL night, and NOTHING was digested, upon Easter Sunday , approaching, I chose to END his stay! I called the proper regimines.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4>The F-U-C-K, if my babes and I , were gonna git stuck with his aarogant ass, all weekend! I, didn't give a poop, whether his arms were bigger than me legs! SOOOOooooo, I called it. NEXT THING- his Mama, calls , SCREAMING this, that and the Other thing at me. I hung up!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> Make a tale , shorter, he came to obtain his property. ALL- was washed and dryed. Nicely placed in CLEAN bags, and placed in the yard. I locked the doors, and went to obtain my Children, from The Y.M.C.A.! After, we arrived home, doors STILL locked, he bangs, and says, "I need to git my BOX!" I allowed him in, and, after he claimed his 'House Arrest Box,' he began to state HORRIBLE statements toward me. "What did you do to your Son?" "The reason you can't git a man or Freinds, is because your fat and Ya have no teeth!" "I'm calling Child Services , because Yer a drunken junkie!!" FOR THE FIRST TIME-I kept my mouth shut, and Closed the door.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> He has Sensitive skin. Due to THIS- he requires a $14.00 RAZOR, that vibrates, in which to shave with. I , bought him 1! He , required socks, I got some!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> N-O-W, YES, I drink beer at home, periodically. I haven't shot ANYthing into my VEINS, in YEARS!, and if ANYONE, wishes to test me, they shall obtain 'Aquafina!'</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> T-E-S-T Me! THINK , I will pay 4 it? N-O-T! What he and his cockeyed Mom, refuse to UNDERSTAND, is- I have more consequential back up, to my mechanism / LIFE, than they , could EVEN ponder! Dunmore isn't a JOKE! For REAL, fer real, 'I' was the JOKE , to have tried to assist! Because, I am NOT rich, BIG deal. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6666ff size=4> The Beautiful Thing IS... WE- Are a Church Family, and , simply THAT! My Husband, canNOT , even tear me down. THAT, is why he can't stand me:) I used to be a fool Junkie! I, said NO! and I stayed that way. So- Ryan, Lynda, sorry I couldn't help more. PEACEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. It's NOT my fault.</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-59071439832237730802008-03-24T10:10:00.000-07:002008-10-09T13:37:23.185-07:00It's been a while:(<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Ya miss me? I, missed YOU! THIS, is the day after, Easter! I have a tale to tell. Hope you can absorbe it. { Actually, it gives me Goose Flesh.} </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I have a Friend, named, 'Anna Young.' She, once told me a tale, of when she had EVERYTHING, a carton of cigs/food in the fridge/ ETC>! However, her Child, wished for something, than she had homadge to suffice. She looked toward THE LORD, and asked, {why?} HE, responded, ""you have all you NEED, I , shall, Covet you with what ALL you NEED!" She , then, UNDERSTOOD! AND- properly shared the Message, with [me.]</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> She didn't HEAR, HIM, then- but she figured it out, a few Years , forward. {{and so do i}}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Ya wanna know something?!! THIS- is MY truth! I, am as human as any ONE of US! NONE of US- are perfection! We seem to SEARCH, like the Dickens?!! What the pluck ARE we searching for?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> THIS, Easter, my Children and I, nibbled the Blessings UP! I was a goof, fer a sec. I THOUGHT, the 'cookbook,' said our Ham, only required a cook time , of 13-19 mins.! BALDERDASH! It, { due to Aunt Pats, REAL book}, required to let simmer for 3 1/2 HOURS! THIS- was Fortunate! The 'Taters,' weren't done, YET, sooooooooo, we nibbled Salad/pasta/and FRESH,HOT, Crescent rolls, UNtill the rest of the entourage, Came into play:)-</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> The Children, are, -at this time- PLAYING with their Friends, at , The Y.M.C.A.! During our cantor of Easter diggins' , we ALL , forgot, The Y.M.C.A., was to come into play, TODAY! AS GOD AS MY WITNESS,I've NEVER- seen them dress/make Lunches, and Scoot- THAT fast , as I did , Today!! didn't THINK , they had it in 'em!! I- - - was WRONG! JUST, goes to show a person, "where there's a WILL, there's a WAY!" Tripp OUT!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> I have a SOUND, amount of RE-distrubution, to attaine to OUR HOUSE! I wish to be able to ASK , your forgiveness, that I haven't been, MORE dilligent in my personal studies. I got UP, in me Head, and , forgot , HOW to git OUT!.../.sorry!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> Point BEING- you have my ULTIMATE PERMISSION, to pray for me/They, ANY time~ I'm BAAAAAAAAAAAACK! At least, fer Daaaa Moment. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> With A-L-L, DUE, respect, cool if Da POOP comes out , kindly, from me Bathroom Reader! PEACEEEEEE!... OH!- P.S., still horney and Dudeless! TTYL...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc size=5> P.S.S. Me friend , accross the Street- she has an OLD Puppster! Her NAME, is 'Sylvia.' we call her "Silly,"! {Yeppers! it's another Easter Blessing!!} A glass, was broken in Their home. As they cleaned up, NO one, checked 'Sillies ,' FOOD dish! "Silly," nibbled up a Healthy Shard! SHE- was , this , to sat The LEAST, aiming for a detrimental demise!~ NO ONE- knew that the shard, landed!!!!!!!!!! SOooooo, yesterday, was infectuously damned.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P> Guess WHAT?!<FONT color=#6600cc> TODAY-<STRONG> "Silvia," passed the shard, and SANG , me love song, as I visited HER! In a couple of days, I SHALL, take , the MAGIC , doggie brush, and fix her up, like NObodies Buisness! She-is The Syl! AND- i AM, Honored to have known HER! AND- thanks BE-to JESUS, she, I CONTINUE, to! Takes a BODACEOUS PUP, in which to nibble a Shard of GLASS, take a day to feel like shit, and come back-SHINING! THIS!!!!!!!!, Should be a resolution to ALL of us!- SHURE- shit gets TOUGH! However, ALL of us, CAN elevate, to the Promise of continuance! It's, {to me,} kinda- sorta, a LOT, like, "Forrest Gump!" ""Life gives Ya , a box of Chocolates, Ya NEVER KNOW- what Yer gonna GET!""</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc> i WAS- a junkie, drug addict! MY, SOULFULL purpous, was , ESPECCIALLY, on Friday Night- 'THIS- is MY time to go to the bar/ ETC.!" I'm STILL , not TOO bad lookin', AND, I have BETTER THINGS, to do with my BODY / TIME! """I""" , have a RIGHT, to orchestrate COOKOUTS! I, have a RIGHT- to git silly with Me Babes! I, have The RIGHT, to acknowledge, that , "Lifes' a tripp!" Best I can tell Ya- 'Git -R-Done!' ""Larry The Cable Guy.""</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc> At the moment, I am on the PHONE, with me Neighbor, JEN! It, would appear, that I, AM, invited, to JOIN, Jen and SOUND , Musical Cherubs, that WILL be performing , at a SOUND , neighborhood PUB- and "I," have BEEN invited:)-! I, INTEND, to CONDUCT, myself, in the Joyous, and Proper composieure, as i AM, built to DO! THIS- is NOT a Joke! Allow me to ask a question! WOULD you , permitt , yourself, to build a Masterpiece, only to find , YOUR MASTERPICE would fail?!? I, HAVE done WELL- at my betterment. THIS, will allow me to GO- and , attaine my ACHE, to REvisit to my younger Escapades:)- For , ONE evening, I SHALL be worthy of 'Kicking up Me heals!'</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc> I, SHALL conduct myself, in a reputable manor! W-H-Y,,,?, BECAUSE , I AM , Wortrh it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc> TTYL... PEACE Be Untoo.... I'm sik and plucking tired, to HAVE to Hear, anothers repreave. I, am NOT stupid! I have a pulse, and I have a HEART, that beats WILD, as a Fearies Wings in Flight!</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-87598934202464707452008-01-28T07:39:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.186-07:00DEAR GOD, help...<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=33 alt="Blushy 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_13_6.gif" width=31 border=0/></A> <STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5>LORD, I've missed this!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> SO, many things have been going on, these days. I, have grown stronger, less fearfilled, YET- I'm an idiot! SO, many things are going in a fortitude way, but, it's like I take a few steps , forward, and jack meself "7" backwards?!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> ALLOW ME TO TRAVEL BACKWARDS, fer a sec.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> YESTERDAY- was me Birthday. I revelled into the 44th Year of my existance. Within my ENTIRE existance, I would, without a doubt, get monstrously obliterated! Yesterday- I didn't! I 'spose there's a first for everything. I cooked, enjoyed, Basked in the LOVE of my Children. We nibbled, WELL, and awoke , WITHOUT, a headache!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> There is a NEW addition, to our family. There is a young man, whom is residing with us, named 'Ryan,' He was placed in jail, for being HONEST!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5>THINK , I'm kidding, THINK again. He was the recipiant of a stollen computer. 'In Realising THIS, he called the police, provided the machiene, BUT- - - was jailed for ONE month, since he, { appreciating his life } would NOT disclose the NAME of the seller!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> Community, he's 23! I, am 44. He doesn't smoke/drink/do drugs/ AND- he adores OUR LORD! Community, he's friggin' GORGEOUS! The young Man has a mind like a Steele TRAP! S-H-O-O-T me, I'm infatuated! He loves aminals and he is SOOOOOOoooooo Proper , with My Children! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=70 alt="" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_5_103.gif" width=67 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=70 alt="" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_5_105.gif" width=66 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=79 alt="" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_5_104.gif" width=67 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=70 alt="" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_5_107.gif" width=110 border=0/></A>I've been PRAYING, 4 a sound companion!! He, even cooks/cleans! He is RESOUND in his appearance, and conducts himself, at his BEST. [I'M IN NIRVANA]............... He holds down "2" jobs, and NEVER, seems to lose focus!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> The man, offers me $$, so as to NOT use Us, and , it breaks me heart to accept it.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> Yesterday, 'The Upper Room,' commended me for assisting my fellow man. As GOD as my witness, 'tis The Only thing/REASON, I'm doing this. I've BEEN where he is, and it SUCKS! His Momma, can't even assist! She, is on, what is called the S.C.R.A.M. bracelette! ""THIS,"" is a device, that will take readings, in order to detect ANY, kind of alcohol!!!!!! Therefore- since I'm living a purer fashion of lifestyle, NOTHING is strapped to me leg! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=49 alt="Wakka Wakka" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_34.gif" width=60 border=0/></A> I can dance with the BEST of Us. I, HAD one, but I graduated. {THANK GOD } <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=56 alt=Spaz src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_33.gif" width=64 border=0/></A> I'm so fucked up.LOL-</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> I, WISH I could ask your direction, as to my hormonal whimsie! </FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> Let us revert to another topic. THE GIRLS! Report cards came out. I, had , removed them from The Y.M.C.A., after School program. I had notices, sent home, saying they were FALLING , Rapidly! SOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo, I slashed The "Y', and began HANDS ON attention. Their Grades came UP, a bit, and , due to the reign of marilyn, I was NOT going to JAMM crap down their throats~! A-L-L, require to BREATHE'! sumtimes:)-</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> SO!- they will remain at School, and be Tutored, 2 days, and then , I shall pick 'em up from the "Y," '3' days a week. PERSONALLY, for ME, if Ya try to jamm sumpthin' down my throat, I'll YAK, right in your face! HOWEVER, if ya just kick me in the ass, periodically, I'm WAY, more receptive??!!! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=83 alt="Lightbulb Idea" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_8.gif" width=83 border=0/></A> MAIN point, IS- NO one said I was norml, STILL- I , A-M trying! I , Continue to pray , that my Children, ARE, in SOME profound way, enriched! Darn it, I'm just a Carly! Shit does NOT begin, NOR end with me! There has GOT to be a superior plan! To be Honest with Ya- I'm an INTENSE , whack job.KOOL part, IS- I'm gentle, and I don't hurt peoples, anylonger. As a matter of fact, i am capeable to instill Growth, these days. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=29 alt=Bush src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_15_2.gif" width=30 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=27 alt=Bonsi src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_15_1.gif" width=21 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=38 alt=Leaf src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_15_12.gif" width=36 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYMOUS" target=_blank><IMG height=32 alt="Tree 4" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_4_19.gif" width=32 border=0/></A>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> PLEASE, forgive my hormonal IMbalance. I continue to have a PULSE. I, ACHE for a Sound , strength orientated soul to cuddle! I, Shall behead my thoughts, of the young man, whom resides with me! HE deserves a righteous opportunty, to SPREAD HIS WINGS, and F-L-Y! He's Tubular, from his Heart!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#006600 size=5> " HE , leadeth me beside still, waters. In ALL my issues, I, MUST acknowledge HIM, and HE will guide my path," Peace be Unto...</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-60576664846638558552008-01-10T07:05:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.187-07:00YOU, tell me...<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4>Did you know, I have a bleeding heart?!! WELL- I do. I work so DARN Hard, at being a Proper Christian. Yet- I loose my flippin' mind, periodically?! This , 'New Years,' I krept into it, with profound Joy, and Optimism. I've STILL got a bunch of it, B-U-T, my frustrations keep messin' with me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> I have canned the Y.M.C.A., for the Girls, for I felt their Schoolastic abilities were being threatened. We, STILL, belong, and can visit, when err we wish, BUT- "The Latch Key," thingy, will be put on hold fer a while. Those Grades, MUST come up! Bottom Line!!!!!! Even Megoras' penmanship, is improving, since I have made the stand , I have.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Wish to KNOW what KILLS ME? The ploppin' MATH, escapes me profusely, and I doubt myself, for taking the road I have chosen. I, didn't STOP, There! I have placed them into 'Tutoring,' at School, after classes are done. Yo!- they squank with MATH, well. { i just took a DEEP breathe.}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> perhaps, SOMEONE, could rejuvinate me, since , I am finding myself, Inadequate. ALL, 'round us, have more $$ than 'Trump?!!' Precious People, we have so , VERY much, BUT- our clothes are of , { I can sew that } and , "Oxy Clean," can make SUCH, the difference.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> With your permission, I wish to say, "A few, told me, " DO NOT have Children, UNless Ya got a cash flow, like none-other!" I, THOUGHT, boink you! It ALL , comes from the Heart and Soul! Peoples, I am finding, this , 'perhaps,' may NOT be conclusive??!!!!!!!! Awe, I'm a Goof-Ball! YES- it DOES! It comes from down, DEEP inside! PARDON, if I offend! However, 'who the fuck cares, IF, yer clothes, are NOT , 'Armani?!!' It's WHO'S inside, that MAKES, The REAL difference! Still, I ALLOW it to cash in on me Heart, from time to time. Please, HEAR me, when I share, that my Babies are NOT dressed as paupers! We, simply, don't share the UNneed of stitches or patches?!! Big, Ploopin' DEAL! Dey's Warm, CUTE and colourefully precise! Their nails are done Nicely, their HAIR, is Quite performed, and ETC.! Personally, however, "Judge NOT, lest thou be Judged," I've seen some in our JUDGED SLOT! Pardon, but a few, on the down scale, altered from ours!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Granted, and Thankfully, some of the Parents, are delighted, to allow THEIR Children, to spend the weekend with us! Their Children are LOVED, FED -nicely, and pampered, best we have. BOTH, Child and Parental Units, are Pleased:)-</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Megora, is now , in a class, which will Teach her, 'Sign Language!' She ellected this, so that she could express LOVE to those, whom cannot HEAR. THIS- leads me to share with you, an instance, which happened, when we went to the Site, where our Family is lain to rest, TWO blocks, from our residence. On, 'Memorial day, last year, we took 'Chopped Chicken Livers, and Matzoh, and sped to our Family plots. We took, a 'Walkman, and placed on the station, "Classical Musik." Papa, 'Charles Philip Gerchov,' adores it! We dined and spent time with ALL of our passed Family, AND, their neighbors.NOW- in THAT segment of the Cemetary, it is Proper, that one places a stone, upon the top of the Head Stone, to show that the Person was visited. As we departed, { and- I was UNaware my Children, had collected,Several stones } there were a few, whom had NONE, atop of theirs. Megan, asked, "WHY, Mommie, do thet NOT have stones?" I, responded, that, "Perhaps, they passed LONG ago, and Their Families , aren't near enough to leave one." Upon our departure, she AND Ashley, emptied their collection, upon those , without. I, LISTENED, as they stated, ' I know you don't KNOW me, BUT- you are NOT forgotten. Rest In Peace.'</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Had THAT...had ANYthing to do with the clothes?!! I, think NOT!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> I have NO boyfriend. I, have NOT the love of the husband I cannot afford to divorce. I, am so lonely. BUT- I have the Lord Jesus, I have Friends, and I have Gail! I BEG yur forgiveness, at times, I simply wish I had a SOUND BODY to hold me back. I'd snuggle the daylights, outta some ONE! BUT- I would be more delighted, in which to C-A-R-E for the person, in the Coolest ways. These ways , would be , Spiritual, emotional,edible {food wise.} I ASK you. PLEASE send me your prayers of comfort. I have ALL I Really need. Forgive me . for being selfish. I just MISS, being hugged. Ya know, I used to take PRIDE, in being a Wonder Woman type. It's gittin' OLD!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> I can only hope, ALL of you, have one , whom to give you a REQUIRED Hug...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Yesterday, I scooped up some delectable nibbles. They shall be able to sustain us for , at LEAST , three weeks:)- THESE nibbles, are NOT junkfood! I, am capeable , of orchestrateing some delectable meals, for TWO of The Coolest , shorter peoples, I know.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> Speaking of Peoples- I, am working , on crochetting a VEST, for my son, whom my addiction , caused me to paralize. I, WAS- gonna do a sweater, BUT- his Linda told me he OVERheats, Easily. SOooooo, I, X-Nayed the sleeves. I, canNOT wait, untill I can bestowe it to him. I made it , a bit larger, so as it will FIT- for quite some time. THIS way, he can touch the stitches, and K-N-O-W, I stitched it from my heart! MUCH alike, the Prayer shawls, I bestowed for my Church Family Members. They didn't take $$...They TOOK L-O-V-E! It is NOT, what I do! It , 'IS,' why/how and HOW, I DO it! Same, as WHY, I am orches</FONT></STRONG><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4>trating me BOOK! I, wish NOT, to direct, Nor Preach! Simply , to share some tid-bits, that aide moi'! "SHARING IS CARING."</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#993399 size=4> PLEASE, do NOT give up. NOTHING, Good, comes Easy! Most of the time, I BEG to differ??!!! Thanks BE- I spank meself. and move, FORWARD...</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-60544081443481505852008-01-07T20:07:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.187-07:00Pardon, I've been a bit Dormant...<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> It's been a while! I, DO, apologise!!!!!!!! Due to the Holidays, Etc., I had to shut sumpthin' down. SO- I took a break on Da BOOK.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> SOOOOoooo, Very MUCH, has transpired. AND- I'm Thrilled to be able to share it with you. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> The Holidays, were astounding! THEY, were NOT filled with $$, gifts, and what not. It was filled with , sensations of GIVING, from what we could MAKE, ETC.! F-u-n part, WAS, the gifts we bestowed, were accepted with HEARTfelt smiles and Love! "Boscoves," couldn't hold a candle to US!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> I , MUST say, the gifts, didn't , only stem from Christmas. They began LONG afore. YEAH!- we are poor folk. However, we have been presenting our LIVES, as Gifts!! We are conducting ourselves, in a manner , that is OUTSTRETCHES ourselves, in ALL we attempt. There were times, when we were needed as a Friend. There were times, when we were NEEDED as Christians. There were times, when, we , SIMPLY, were humain and Helpful, without asking, nor wishing for ANYthing in return! For me...'tis THE ONLY way, manner or fashion, that one designates a show of help/ concern/ favor!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> We belong to a Church, where we FINALLY, belong. It IS teaching us, MANY aspects, of living a BETTER life. This is NOT a Church that stuffs stuff down our throats! As a matter of fact, 'I' am actually, attending Bible Classes, and am listened to, when I wish to share, { wierd as it may be } THEY wish to listen?!! As I am told, things I convey, {in my weird way} are understood, and taken to heart??!!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> For Christmas, since we are slim on finances, I MADE prayer shawls, for the Friends we have made. GOD, and Shewwie Davidge, have allowed me to become, quite the crochetter. SO- I orchestrated shawles , for many of the 'Family'members. I, also, put into realm, my ability to create cards, written from my heart, in my artistic penmanship. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> Miss Regina, {a devout Catholic,} responded to the card I orchestrated for her, with her gift, WITH TEARS IN HER EYES- that, my card was written in, such depth, and sincere elloquence, she could scarcely endure?!!!!! I, was FLOORED! For, I was , always, under the impression, she thought I was a dweeb?! Personally, I find her a mentor. She stands for such , resound strength, and control. me- , well, I am a strung out Hippie Freak. There, {to what I could SEE }be, no POSSIBLE way, we could connect. FACT of the matter, 'IS,' she Related to me, in ways, that are UNexplainable. However, THEY are REAL. I, had FINALLY , begun to graduate, to an actual PERSON, instead of a useless REBEL. The LORD, has guided me, {and I LISTENED,} in order to punctuate me, into a Family, that appreciated my colourefullness. As WELL, as, I was permitted, to apply those coloures, withOUT , having to be brass!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> TOO MANY , of my years, 'I'd wished, I had NEVER been born , at ALL!' Today, I am realising, that 'HE,' had a divine PLAN, I, couldn't have fathomed in my wildest dreams.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> PLEASE, do NOT confuse what I am revealing. I have MUCH, MORE to LEARN!!!!!!!!!!!! However, today, I have EARNED sight of the FACT, that I can actually understand that! Beside the FACT, that there IS hope for me, YET! Allow me to be MORE precise.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> Tomorrow, { since we are recipients of "Section 8," a housing blessing, will be inspected , so as we are permitted to continue , Because of this Program! The state of Penna., provides some, from a program, where, The State helps pay, 45 %, of simple peoples' RENT. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> My YOUNGEST Daughter, reminded me of IT, lest , three hours ago!! An inspection, demands UTmost attention! Therefore, the THREE of us, locked HOOK, LINE amd SINKER, into preparing the Castle, into TIP-TOP shape!!!!!!!! it's quite COOL, cuz, we love Da Castle to begin with. SO- it wasn't TOTALLY , mind boggling, in which to prepare. WE, Adore our setting! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> I, MUST, become Painfully HONEST! As, in, the latter part of my book...I revealed, that , I-WAS an imbosilic drug/alcohol TWERP!! N-O-T, Today!! Please, do NOT git it twisted...DUE TO my idiotic escapades, I AM, feeling the repricussions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEP, broken back/metal leg /spazmodic brain!!!! However, I am ABLE to use my HEART/mind and SOUL, in fashions, I NEVER accomodated! I, am a SINGLE Mommie, whom has MORE ZEST, than I could have immagined. YEAH- I'm a bit odd! Saints Be Praised, I, FOUND- I have a heart, which BEATS, as Fierce as a Faeries Wings!!!!!!!!! {In Flight!} There IS a profound REALITY! TOO, many, Search for someone ELSE, to adore THEM??! 'Bottom Line- 'IS," why must it come from , someone ELSE?? ' I, am FINDING, that Da BEST, comes FROM- LOVING, and appreciating, ones OWN self! 'Taint no fart gonna be ABLE, to disagree!!!!!! Carly is FINDING, it canNOT be duplicated, NOR, shortchanged, if 'IT,' comes from within!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> Yeah- a WHOLE, lot of PENT UP emotion! It's been a WHILE. Please, Pardon me. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399 size=5> MAY, I request a Flavor? Send us your PRAYERS, for tommorows shake down?!:)- TYVM...</FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-77394085386530928642007-12-04T01:58:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.188-07:00THE, Most Impressive Dream, I EVER had!<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399>It's 4:00 A.M., and I have spramg from my bed to write all this down, afore I forget it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> The Dream, began, as I sit accross from John and Jens' garage, and, I noticed the once , full garage, equipped with 'Anglia,' and ' Harley,' was empty! As the dream progressed, I witnessed many, new people, begining to place musical instruments of an array, where the mobiles used to reside! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> SHOCKED, I patiently awaited Johns' return from work, as he does every day. As he pulled up and backed in to his still his spot, backwards, I RAN to him, questioning , 'WHY' was this taking place!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> His response, was, "Carly, the time has come, where ALL man kind , MUST move ahead and lives were about to change for the better!" "PLEASE- explain yourself, more clearly!" I urged. SO- he did. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> "The time has come, for man and woman, to join, together, for the GOOD and SURVIVAL of eachother!" "We are coming, together, in Harmony, and we are begining , HERE!" "BUT- John, where am I to go???" I pressed heavily. "Where will the Girls and I go, if you are to flatten, EVERYTHING, and branch out into a community of Love, Peace and Harmony?" Fear NOT, Carly, you're a GOOD girl / person, you may join us! Besides, you LOVE music:)." "You'll fit in , fine, with our new found community!" </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> Aghast, I took the time to gather myself and the Girls, and chose to take part in this Beutiful transition . "B-U-T, I don't know too much about building a structure , from the ground , UP?!!" I exclaimed. "EVERYONE, has their own, special traits, and others will be Happy to show you, many things and ways, for you to offer your best accompaniments:)" AND THEN IT BEGAN!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> I was allowed to begin, participating, in THE, Most awesome tearing down, and ressurecting, I have EVER seen , nor heard of!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> We began, in gutting all the sides, {NOT FRAMES } of the buldings , INCLUDIND the floors, right down to the dirt! It appeared, we would focus , on John' garage, and , quick as a wink, new walls were errected, and a New floor, was provided with blankets, cement and wood. The Band, began to raise their instraments, and moved to belt out some righteous tunes, which , only seemed to provide COOL motivation, to the soon drawing, New occupants of this community. Women, Children, men and boys, { most, with jeans, flannels and thermal tops, and Leather, [black.] brought and began their specific tallents, and put them to GOOD use!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> Mostly, 'twas the WOMEN, whom orchestrated the electrical wireing. They used some of THE, Most exotic tooles, I've ever imagined! 'I,' was begining to help lay the floors of our New reservation, that, for some, Nifty way, shifted from the rural area of Dunmore, to- deep in the woods.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> During my work , it seemed, my workboots, with thinning souls and NO shoelaces, became separated, and I was with ONE shoe on, and ONE shoe OFF??!!! Fortunately, I located ONE of my Baby Blue ones, WITH laces, and replaced it , on my sore, freezing foot...only to 'GIT BACK TO WORK!'</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> I began to tire from my incessive floor laying, and began talking with the woman, whom was doing the intricate , Electrical wireing. She began to show me, how it was done.She didn't get short, or testy with me, NAY- JUST the opposite! This dark haired woman with a thermal , long sleeved shirt, was gentle in her directions! She , then, suggested that I go for a strolle, around, and observe more ways to learn and SEE what can happen, when we all pull together for the good! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=60 alt=Shovel src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/12/12_5_50.gif" width=35 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=48 alt=Hammer src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/12/12_5_6.gif" width=26 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=23 alt="Power Drill" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/12/12_1_2.gif" width=31 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=24 alt=Sawing src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_2_9.gif" width=49 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=43 alt=Hammering src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_2_10.gif" width=41 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt=Construction src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_11_4.gif" width=110 border=0/></A>...AND, so I did. The farther around I trot, the more widened my heart and eyes , became! I witnessed , the partions of areas, connecting us ALL, in a home-like setting, SHARING the halls, NOW- lined with solid, wooden archs, and walls, that were intrically designed in decorative carvings and details! THIS, 'I noted,' was done by a man named, 'Carl,' whom OWNS 'Weggies Bar,' up the St. on Drinker?!! Carl is a decent Dude, whom provides some Tasty Eats, as well as a kind establishment , complete with a JukeBox, filled with bodaceous tunage, and a Great, Sturdy pool table / Dart Machiene ! { I do NOT frequent the place, ONLY once in a Blue Moon ;)} ! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> As I wandered , further, I found that , at THE very back of our community, we were, SUMHOW, attached to the Mall! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt="Shopping 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_18_5.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=56 alt="Shopping 3" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_8_9.gif" width=100 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt=Grocery src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_18_1.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt="Sales Rack" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_18_4.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> T-H-I-S, I gathered , was our LAST link to society, { for provitions sake, of course } . Later, I found, we were tapping into their Electrical forces. LMAO, LOL! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=88 alt=Electric src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_11_23.gif" width=80 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=73 alt="Electric Slide" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/5/5_1_121.gif" width=81 border=0/></A> <SPAN contentEditable=false unselectable>
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<P><STRONG><FONT color=#333399> My escapade of learning, was done, and I decided to git back to the community / My Children, B-U-T, Not untill I stopped to grab , the Wooden Bunk Beds, for Ashley and Megan! I felt, they wiuld go wonderfully, with the WOODEN halls of pure progress, and, THEY were NOT sleeping in MY bed, for they KICK like mules in their sleep:)- The beds, when I returned to place my addition to the project, where errected, and the matresses , were ALL made from 'Tempurpedic Foam!' They were constructed, SO soundly, NOT a squeek could be heard, whence anyone got in. The floors I lain, were stained and shelacked, such a beautiful vision, {Especially, that I knew I HAD helped:):)!!} ALL, was nearing finale', and ALL were tired and proud. As Carl, prepared the Meal, the Band, began a profound set of phenominal music, as we ALL, lined the amphatheatre seats, in which to drink in the sound of our efforts and progress!Ashley and Megan, were thrilled that i had obtained their beds, and all that was left, was for them to fight over whom got the top and bottom! LOL... STRANGE THING, though...'twas "John," whom , at the close of the day, was the one I lay next to, for a long evenings sleep???!!!!!!!! His Harley, was parked at the end of the bed. GO FIGURE! I think I shall open to 'JOHN,' in The BIBLE, today, and listen to what I require to hear. GOD, HAD to have his hand in THIS Dream! Peace Be Unto... <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=53 alt="Blow Kiss" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_3_15.gif" width=64 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=83 alt="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" width=83 border=0/></A> <BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><A href="http://smiley.smileycentral.com/download/index.jhtml?partner=ZSzeb098_ZCYYYYYYYYUS&utm_id=7926" target=_blank><IMG src="http://www.smileycentral.com/sig.jsp?pc=ZSzeb098&pp=ZCYYYYYYYYUS" border=0/></A></FONT></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-65984800529624745992007-11-28T06:48:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.189-07:00A Sincere addition from my Heart and Soul...<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=44 alt=Dancing src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/5/5_1_120.gif" width=51 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=52 alt="Bow Down" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_32v.gif" width=68 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=38 alt="The Thinker" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_11.gif" width=23 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=21 alt="Ignoring You" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_4.gif" width=20 border=0/></A><FONT color=#cc33cc> </FONT><FONT color=#cc33cc>I come to you, today, in complete AWE! Lately, I have been faced with some, rather BIG confrontations of 'SELF!' "Thanksgiving," has just passed, and I found Us, SOOOooooo, VERY blessed, with awards of food, from others, whom LOVE us! We were given THREE turkeys, and, of course, the fixins' to boot. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=53 alt="Heart Glasses" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_3_9.gif" width=56 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=83 alt="Nap Turkey" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/8/8_5_19.gif" width=83 border=0/></A>. I canNOT, be more grateful, for we were running short of regular foods, and we've COOKED and EATEN, ALL 3! Tee-Hee...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc> We provided Alan with a succulent meal, and he ACTUALLY, went outside on That Warm, Sunshiny Day, and played in the leaves I had raked up, with Ashley!?!! I did NOT dine WITH them. He had polished off a '30" pack, night afore, and was STILL in the pangs of leftover drunkenness, and { as usual } was trying DESPERATELY, to git my goat! I remained silent, and serving, { pissed him off A LOT! } and simply served and cleaned:)! He said, "I'm only coming , for the sake of the Girls!" SOOOOoooooo, THAT is how I left it! He ate / spent time, with the GIRLS! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=66 alt=Wink src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_12.gif" width=66 border=0/></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc> When it came time for him to go to the bar, I stood silent, as he kissed / hugged the Babes, ONLY to be SHOCKED, as he kissed MY forehead, THEN- me lips??!!! I bid hima good day, and wished him to take care. PERHAPS- it was due to the fact, that I sent him with a bag of turkey,rolls,ETC., for later and to share with his cats?! WHO KNOWS-</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc> However, 'I KNOW,' I did it to be a kind PERSON. There were NO hidden agendas!! The rest of the day, were mine and MY Babes:)- I HOPE you are sitting down, for, ASHLEY- cleared the table, placed the remainder of food, in recepticles, and REfridged it! She, then, scrapped the dishes, and placed them in the sink. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=150 alt=Shocked src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/39/39_5_4.gif" width=120 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=49 alt=Shocked src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_19_6.gif" width=51 border=0/></A>There MUST be, SOMETHING, I am doing well! Ash, doesn't do SHIT, and I sniggled her to the enth degree for it!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc> That night, I took the time, to PRAY, and Thank GOD, that she is making THAT kind of progress, and that 'HE,' kept my mouth , silent. ANYONE, whom KNOWS me, Knows I have a HARD time, curbing my tongue. ESPECIALLY, when I FEEL, I am in the right, and I am Purpously egged on by a putz! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=75 alt="Shy Whistler" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_18_7.gif" width=75 border=0/></A>! I can be QUITE the little pistole?!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc> The next thing, I wish to share, IS- we , NOW, have "3" cats! { sumthings never change } As I spent ALL we had on the Holiday, we ran OUT of LITTER! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=72 alt=Crazy src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_11_10.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=30 alt=Shock src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_11_9.gif" width=30 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=30 alt=Whoa src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_6_4.gif" width=30 border=0/></A> ! I did my BEST, as to FIRST, collect sum dirt from the garden. N-O-T happening! ALL, THREE, did NOT dig it. {every pun intended </FONT> }<FONT color=#993399>and elected to do their buisness, ALL OVER the bathroom / Girls bedroom! I , THEN, tried ripped up paper?! NO GO! Fortunately, my kitties have SOME sense, and they did it, in THE, Best places, they could have! "YEAH KITTIES!" As well, as, we had LOADS of paper towels, in which to remedy the situations. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=66 alt="Kitty 1" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_1_23.gif" width=66 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=44 alt=Petting src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_1_20.gif" width=53 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=83 alt="Glitter Kitty" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_28.gif" width=83 border=0/></A> ! Due to the Holiday, the Child Support payment, was NOT placed on my card, untill yesterday. Yet- for some STRANGE reason, I kept composieure, like I did NOT realise I could?!! P.S.- they are HAPPY, today, AND, so am "I"</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> The NEXT menagerie, we toppled upon, was, MELISSA! { a.k.a. Ya-Ya} I received a call, stating that her Ex boyfriends' Grand Father, passed on, and she wished to attend the funeral with him, "Could I watch her Children?" To make a LONG story, shorter, I said YES!, and she suggested, that she pick us ALL up, to stay overnight, at her house, ETC.! O.Kaybie...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> W-E-L-L, he we friggin' go! NOW- her Children a riddled with A.D.D./ O.D.D. ?.D.D............. AND- she hastherapists for them , ETC. B-U-T, she does NOTHING with them, herself! The six year old, has NO idea, how to wipe his butt, put on his clothes, { GOD, the list goes ON...} The two boys have attitudes, that would rattle St, Theresa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO- @ 11ish, that night, Ya-Ya, begins to wince in pain, and shake, freezing, with a fevor of 102! Her "EX" boyfriend, is asleep on the couch downstairs. Her RECENT Dude, has JUST left! SHe begins to moan in discomfort, in her room , next to the one, the Girls and I were sleeping in. I arose to go and see , WAZZUP!. "I'm in pain and I can't stop shaking!", she says. THEN- she says, "WHERE'S CHRIS?" " He's down stairs, sleeping." "I NEED him!" NOW- This is the Dude that railed her up, against a wall, a week ago, and now she's calling for him??!!!! SOOOOooooo, I go git him.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> I witness him , to crawl into the bed, and remain there, stroking her face and hair, for SEVEN hours! YO!, 'I' went back to bed with me Babes! @ 6ish, I hear her stumble to the bathroom, and upon rejoining her bed, she SCREAMS- "OH GOD!" I RUN in, and she's sweating and shaking...CHRIS, has gone back to the couch. "THAT'S IT!" I squealched, "YOU- ARE going to the hospital!" I go and git Chris, and demand he take her. { mind you, she WAS supposed to go to the Funeral with him!! } </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> She's WHITE as a ghost, and begins to get violently nautious, so I grabbed the bathroom trash basket, in order to assist. HE TAKES HER TO THE HOSPITAL, After a berrage of articulate theatrics. 'I,' am left with the house / Children, ETC.! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=53 alt=Laundry src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_13_5.gif" width=88 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=57 alt=Vacuuming src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_13_1.gif" width=104 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=70 alt=Maid src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_2_8v.gif" width=85 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=53 alt=Laundry src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_13_5.gif" width=88 border=0/></A> !!!!!!!!!!!! She had "5" loads of laundry to be done! NEXT day, is SCHOOL... NO clothes readied! HERE WE GO! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> NOW- I KNOW Melissa! We've been friends for , almost 11 years. She's a Dandy actress! "SHE DIDN'T WISH TO GO!" i FEEL, i knew IT! PLUS!- I found it nausiating, that after her ONE Dude goes, she corraled the Last one, into her bed?!! I, was disgusted. { allow me to state something. BOTH her Children, get S.S.I., this Means, she gets -besides Welfare- $1,298,00 , per month! } Thank JESUS- I HAD...television to watch. At, around 12:ish, 'Comcast,' put an END to her cable! { NON payment! } ?????????????????? THAT, is ALL I have to say , about THAT.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> Chris and she, returned, and stated, she has a urinary tract infection. PLUS- dehydration.PARDON ME- but, as well did the Emergency room say, {i called} we have NEVER seen the theatrics, stemming from such a scenario! CHRIS- took the Girls and I HOME! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=30 alt=Wakka-wakka src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/5/5_1_124.gif" width=41 border=0/></A> , BUT- since I do NOT know EVERYTHING, and I could SEE, her dilemna, ellected to take her ONE son, with us, so that she could rest. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=49 alt="Pulling My Hair Out" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_2_204v.gif" width=57 border=0/></A> ! { " at the end of that day, I HAD to PRAY for GODS' forgiveness, for I was NOT nice, at all! just a little nice to the boy:( } She sent NOTHING with the boy, KNOWING, the Child has ACCIDENTS, ETC.! A-N-D, he DID! I was attacked by a POOP in the pants and CONSTANT urination! The Child said NOTHING, as MT Child, came out, and said, "Mommie, Storm STINKS, and I can't stand it any longer." { i have NO sense of smell, due to a car accident of my own:( } SOOOOOOoooooo, I called there, and asked for them to bring something for the boy. " WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT?" is what I got! The Girls and I put girl panties on him, and a pair of sweats, as I washed, his clothes. <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=71 alt=Vomit src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_7.gif" width=75 border=0/></A> !! At 6 O'Clock, a rap came onto my door, as the immediate boy-toy, arrived to pick up the Child! After their departure, the Girls AND I, danced a JIG! And THEN- PASSED OUT! lol <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=18 alt="Out The Door" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/im/otd.gif" width=60 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=75 alt="Do Not Disturb" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/12/12_2_32.gif" width=40 border=0/></A> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=90 alt=Sleeping src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_2_63.gif" width=100 border=0/></A> </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> Ya know something? I USED to use people:(. SO- I can SEE, WAZZUP! She IS a user. To PLAY these Dudes, to me, is gross! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> BOTTOM LINE- I have NOTHING to say , nor deal with her, again!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> NOW- Here comes the COOLEST part of the story! The NEXT day, we went to CHURCH. It's been a while, since MY Babes were sick. Pastor Betty, was away, BUT- Sharon Thaure, took place, behind the pulpit. SHARON- SHOULD have BEEN a Pastor!!!!!!!!!!! We , took our place , weel- Ash and Mugsie, spent THAT time, practicing their parts in the 'Christmas' play, on "THE EVE," to Learn their lines, as I attended the BIG KIDZ Bible Study! <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=37 alt=Psalms src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/17/17_2_48.gif" width=116 border=0/></A> . Our DEAREST Marg, shared a story, about , The Meaning and PROOF, of 'FAITH! She has JUST returned, for marg, broke some ribs, after a nasty fall:( She spoke of a time, where , she WAS the designated driver, for others to get to the Bible study. YET- she found, she had NO gas. She WAS, going to ask her Husband. GOD said , "DO NOT!" Then, she thought to aske her Brother,"GOD said, do not." SOOooooo, she transported any way, mainstaying in her FAITH! THEY made it! As she pulled into their driveway, realising the needle was a milisecond before EMPTY...and walking to her house.....THERE, in the snowy tread on the tires, in front of her van, lay a $20.00 bill! She turned RIGHT around, whilst Thanking GOD, so as to plac the gas in her tank, that had provided she and her Friends to Study! {it gave me Gooseflesh! }</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> Yesterday, I had the oportunity, to assist my Friend! STILL. I had NO $$, NO litter, ETC.! So- she elected to provide me with litter, ETC.! "You needn't do this." I said, I shall help, anyway!! " BEEN there, Done that.," she stated. And, OFF we went. During our path, I asked to use her cell phone, and called the EPPICard, 'ChildSupport,' thingy.Lowe, and behold, the monies were THERE! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> One of the excursions, were to pay a bill for her, in the mall. Jen has trouble Standing, let alone walking, so I did it for her. She presented me with a fist full of change, she had in her car, so as , perhaps I could git an 'Auntie Annes' Pretzle. { Each time I do this for her, I hit Auntie Annes'! it's tradition. As I looked at the price display, I learned that I would be .20 cents short of my delectable, adored pretzel:( With my fist full of change, I bowed my head in despair. As my eyes hit the floor, I saw .24 cents, dropped by someone. I dropped to pick up, two dimes and four pennies. It was my turn, to order, and I was able to obtain my delectable pretzel, saturated in Garlic:):):):):):):) As I went to pay for it, I came to find, I MISread the sign, and had 15 cents more. I smiled illuminatingly, and placed the 15 cents, as a tip, for another!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> I thought of Margs tale, and LOOKED UPWARDS, and said, "Thank you , JESUS!" Jen, then, had for me to go to 'Price Chooper ,' for her, and upon the monies placed on mt card, I was able to purchase MEDICINE, Litter, Cat food, ETC.! Whilst I helped my Friend. NOW- can you SEE, why I AM elated?!! Happy, Heathy Holidays...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#993399> </FONT><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><A href="http://smiley.smileycentral.com/download/index.jhtml?partner=ZSzeb095_ZCYYYYYYYYUS&utm_id=7923" target=_blank><IMG src="http://www.smileycentral.com/sig.jsp?pc=ZSzeb095&pp=ZCYYYYYYYYUS" border=0/></A></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-81613836464399131802007-11-21T18:53:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.189-07:00Thanksgiving Eve !<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> There is NO , absolute delight! AND, if there IS, I , haven't found it. Naw, THAT is a fib!! THIS ,Thanksgiving Eve, my Youngest Daughter, took preside, in assisting to aide the preparations of Da Turkey, / stuffing / ETC.! SHE, was ELATED! Wanna KNOW something? 'IF,' "I," was to be able to have rank on THAT preparation, YEARS AGO... I'd have ROCKED, Better than I DID!!!!!!!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> As , Ashley Slept...Mugsie went NUTS, amid the kitchen! When SHE wakes, tomorrow...she WILL, Feel the pronounced adoraration, she wished to seek!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Do NOT allow me to fool with you! I, STINK, at culinaries in the kitchen! However- me , and The Mugs- we COOKED!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> There's a funky twist to THIS. Her Daddy, WAS- going to attend The Thanksgiving ,Festivities, tomorrow??!!! Still- he is a BONE Head, and he is , simply NOT welcome. Besides, he's PEEVED at me, that I obtained FOOD, in which to serve??!!! YEAH- he's REALLY right!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> I, am SUCH a profound JERK ! LAST time , he Graced us with his presence, it took me THREE hours, in which to harness my Childrens emotions!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> "Thanksgiving," in MY pinion, is a Sound Gala, in which to absorbe solace! A Chance, in which to be HAPPY! N-O-T, to besurged with annoynce! IT- IS, an Opportunity, to WREAK Haavock on GRATITUDE! He, can kiss my ass!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> I, watched OurBaby, G-L-O-W...as she aided the preparation of The Feast! I, { as well did she } IGNIGHT, due to the preparation of a Sound Reason to nibble!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Alan, UNfortunately, is a RESOUND misfit! I KEPT, trying to coax him INTO a Family??!!! He, has NO DESIRE, in which to do so. HERE WE GO..in the HONESTY DEPT.! After I said, "I DO.'- his MAIN desire, was to have TWO Women! I, provided him with his desire, ONLY to Detest him, LESS- than I detested MYSELF!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> YES! I, am Quite alone, as for to a companion. HOWEVER- at THIS point, I'l be darned, IF- I shall EVER subject myself to such DISRESPECT, E-V-E-R again!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> With ALL, DUE respect...I, am adoreable and I HAVE a Heart of Sterling Silver!! SOOOoooooooo, THIS Thanksgiving, I SHALL have a BLAST! A-N-D, drugs Need NOT be a part of it, NOR, will some prominant cocked Jack ass!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> PEACE OUT... Ash and Mugs say , "Git -R- Done:)"</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-52928057051078852782007-11-18T20:12:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.190-07:00I'm falling, down on my knees.<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=72 alt="Happy Thanksgiving" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/8/8_5_11.gif" width=80 border=0/></A> <FONT color=#6600cc>Ya know something? I've gone through some SERIOUS shit. I've done some REALLY stupid stuff! Most likely, I'll do sum more;)- It seems to be like a fevor , with me. HOWEVER- I believe I gained sone INsight, today. I , THINK , I told you that my sons' Daddy, was out, AND went BACK, into prison??!!! Out of all peoples, he wrote to me, and I wrote back. Yet, I wrote someTHING different, this time! It came from DEEP, within. Lemme SHARE it with you, { word for word }...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> " THIS, is Ridiculous-</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> It's a few days before 'Thanksgiving," and I'm writing to a dude, whom USED me , and fucked up, AGAIN, yet , another Holiday season,4 himself. WHY, d I continue to care?? JUST, because, 'I'm the one,' whom pushed you into the heroin dilemna, and I feel like it's MY fault?!! NOPE! It's 'cause I see things in you, that you've OBVIOUSLY MISSED!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> No matter, how, stone cold, you THINK you are, There is no , fucking way</FONT> <FONT color=#6600cc>, dining on THAT putz shit, on "Thanksgiving, " can be worth a shot in the arm!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> E. J., O.K., so things got messed up!! B-U-T, if 'I' coud get past it, and- { I'M THE ONE WHO MESSED IT UP! }YOU can CATAPULT BEYOND IT ! You have earned Degrees, a NEW language, for fucking WHAT? Simply, to occupt your time?? WHAT a waste!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> I watched you scope out my house, whilst you were here.IT, is comfortable and FILLED with pure, SAFE, love!However, THAT, was NOT enough for you. It , would appear, that being cool and HIGH, had it's FANGS into you, NOW-3 times over.SOOOOOOoooooo, The Ball is IN Your court now. If you choose to bounce it my way, I will answer. BUT- I will NOT, be a blowjob door-matt, EVER, again! I continue to realise how VERY, manythings, I've YET to learn, still stand TRUE.I've made, TOO, Many MAJOR fuck - ups!! TODAY, I wish to nurture and flourish. I wish to GAIN, R-O-O-T-S- that WILL hold TRUE-and a Trunk thats stands Stead-Fast, amid LIFES' storms.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> When I was housed in 'Muncy, State Penetentary,' I witnessed DOZENS of people, coming back through the razor - wire gates!, sayin' , " HEY BAY, DID YA MISS ME?" 'NOT, THAT much, I thought to myself.' YOU- have Obviously claimed it to be acceptable, to be STUCK in the revolving , Prison Door.</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#6600cc> Happy Holidays / LIFE, Elton-</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc> Your Friend, 'Pea Head' x0x0</FONT></P>
<P><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><A href="http://smiley.smileycentral.com/download/index.jhtml?partner=ZSzeb095_ZCYYYYYYYYUS&utm_id=7923" target=_blank><IMG src="http://www.smileycentral.com/sig.jsp?pc=ZSzeb095&pp=ZCYYYYYYYYUS" border=0/></A></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-18496120984702580132007-11-15T20:28:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.191-07:00I am not norml!<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Shine on, you Crazy Diamond! Allow me to disclose some frightening information, about myself. </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> As I have told you, earlier, on Dec. 1st, 1990, I drove drunk and , CRASHED! I paralized my 6 mo. old Son, and KILLED my ULTIMATE boyfriend.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> My Sons' Daddy, Elton, has chosen to delve into heroin. He CONTINUES, to plop IN and OUT of prison, and , EACH departure , from the facility, he seeks me out.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Each, and every time, I seem to welcome him. A-L-L, THREE ventures, I have provided him with finances, in which to assist his reaffirmation, into civilianness??!!! 'I,' am an assholian! Peoples, I realise, that JESUS has forgiven me. However, either I am a desperate twerp, or I am beseeching a way, in order to repay him, for what I MAY feel, is the reason he delved??!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> I Pray, you allow me to share a letter I composed, after he wrote to me, upon his settle , of the third landing in a facility. "I," seem to be the ONLY one , he feels compelled to contact. Upon recieving his letter, it took me, OVER a week, in order to find the capasity, in which to respond. 'THIS, ' perhaps, is a GOOD sign:) Afore, I'd have JUMPED onto the FIRST sheet of paper, I could lay my hands on! N-O-T this time!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> HERE!, is my response...</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Well, Hello Elton John-</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Happy Thansgiving. E.J., I'm not sure what you'd like me to say to you.SO- I shall say , that I THOUGHT, I was going to be able to wear that outfit, as you HELPED me to trim the TREE, this year. I pondered you, being awarded a furlough, to be able to spend such a Glorious Holiday, with a Family whom cared 4 you.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> SILLY me {googlie eyes }</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> You Hollered at me, that "HOW DARE ISTICK MY NOSE INTO YOUR BUISNESS. YOU ARE A GROWN ,MAN, AND, eTC.!" ? QUESTION, Elton- WHY, does a grown , strong MAN, continueto rejoin, with institutionalized peoples way of life, instead of living free with people, whom just wished to love you and Build wonderful memories that canNOT be bought or sold?!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> E.J., I'm not ant better than you. I've , simply had ENOUGH of the pain and solitude, living where I HAVE to be told when I am ALLOWED to breathe my own air! When you First began to write to me, you spoke of the classes you were taking, and PASSED! You spoke of the diplomas you obtained, in which to secure you a WELL paying possition. YET- you come out for a few months, ONLY to hook up connects with , idoitic people, whom only fuel your demise??!!! ELTON, WHY did you Take and Pass the classes, if you simply plan on being housed and kept in such an environment?</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> I gave you, monies, that were for our bills!You broke your VOW, to repay us, and our Water got shut off. I TRUSTED you, and prayed I could help.ALL I did, was to aide a user in which to burry himself, DEEPER, as I allowed myself and my Children, to suffer. GUESS WHAT, I musta looked , pretty desperate, HUH! I think, I was TOO CAUGHT UP, in giving back, what I stole from you- Dec, 1st, 1990 !! {tears}</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P> <FONT color=#333399>IF, you wish to write to me further, feel free to and I WILL answer. PERSONALLY, I don't think you have the cahonies. The Freakie thing IS, I still have LOVE for you. However, I'll N-O-T bounce down the alley way, as I go to pick up my Children, like some LOVE-STRUCK 'TEENIE-BOPPER,fooled into THINKING, I Finally have the hopes of my VERY OWN man,gonna be THERE to hold me when I am frightened, who's going toto the solace of life with a Family, Only to have my desires , SQUASHED like an unwanted bug- ANY longer!</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#333399> " Can't we find the minds that Made us , stronger?" PeaHead-</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#333399>Elton named me , 'Peahead,' long ago!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#333399> NOW , if this letter is more than neccessary, sue me! THIS, is , NOT ONLY, what I required to say to him, BUT- what I required to realise , MYSELF!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#333399> PEOPLES- I spent WAY 2 MANY Years, destroying myself!! At THIS point of my life, I can't, { forthelifeofme } figure out , WHY?!! I shielded my observation, to the point of BLINDNESS! I, disfigured myself, and ANYone, whom cared a FIG ABOUT ME! It's , most likely, that, I am AGING, and I have these Fantastic , little Women, that I didn't , completely maime. 'THIS, ' is why I typed, such a volutile chapter, afore! I , actually WATCH and ABSORBE, the goings on, with these ridiculous peeps, with more $$, than they know what to do with, 'cept ruine themselves and others!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#333399> SHEET! I'm fortunate to be poor! I find, I CARE , MORE, about MORE! NOT, that I want more, BUT- that I cherish MORE! OH! PLEASE, don't git me wrong. I, wouldn't MIND a bit MORE!!!!!!!! It bugs me Greatly, tha I can't provide better for my Babies! However, when MY Parental Units, were flowin' in the dough, 'THEY SENT ME AWAY?' HEY- they could afford it??!!! SEE- too much fundage, replaces what IS , actually NEEDED!</FONT></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-78626969427527687112007-11-13T16:46:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.191-07:00"CHRISTmas"<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4>It's all good?!! BULL FUCKIN' SHIT! We are in the throws of the coming of , "Thanks Giving!" </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> As I watched the NEWS, I learned, that there is Scarcely, enough to go around to the NEEDY! It makes me sick!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Another NEWS subject, WAS- even Those with GOOD CREDIT, will NOT be able to afford what they used to, as gifts to their , whomevers!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Peoples, when it gets , so BAD- that we HAVE to Watch reports from the NEWS Stations, that , there is a RASH of "LESS PEOPLE," whom Can share for the People , whom don't have Plastic, ETC., ""THIS,"" Should be a friggin' CLUE, that something's gone a fowl inside the tomatoe!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> "YES!" I am pitchin' a BITCH! These fucking 'Rock Stars,' have 14 Million Dollar homes! The fucking STARS of the SCREEN, have more than they require! Does NOTHING smell funky to you??????????? </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> JUST because I watch you tonsile suck someone you don't love , on a Screen, conveys me to pay, WHAT-, 13.00$ for a fucking ticket, so that you can sell your Daughter / Son, to ride around in Cadidliacs, and drive into a fucking PARKED car, because they were TOO busy snorting cocaine? THIS!- IS, Ludacris! I don't give a fig, if their nipples were hard, or NOT! W-H-E-R-E, is the teachings of the Indians???????? Ya don't , fucking TAKE- UNless you GIVE BACK! </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> The thing that REALLY flipps me OUT, IS- the parental Units, are 'Jammin' WITH these poor souls! ""HEY Babe, let's get waisted, we can PAY someone to git us OUT of IT!??""</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> There ARE Parishioners, around my area, that are BEGGING for FOOD to supply THOSE, whom don't ACT / THINK this way! They, simply TRYING to set a buffet, in order to FEED their Families, 'cuz they TOO fat to go ON SCREEN! BULLSHIT!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Ya KNOW, it DOESN'T surprise me! Ya got those STARS- going BELEMIC, because it's in bad forum, to weigh more than 14 lbs.! The biotches, have NO BOOBIES! 'Taint got no ASS , either! AND- the Scariest Part, IS- they's havin' BABIES! I'm SO secure, in the PEACE, that the CHILDREN, are well kempt, within their wombs! ALL that nutrition, will harbor them from the drugs and alcohol!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> N-O-W, HERE, is The Best! MANY women, in The spotlight do NOT Feel, it is ANY of our buisness, to encounter the FACT that they are With CHILD! W-H-Y?...BECAUSE, it might spoil their , RAKING in $$$$$$, from their performances??!!!! GOD FORBID! I'd wish to SLAP 'em! They SAY...it's none of OUR buisness. KISS MY ASS, you SLUT! At "THAT point "" , it has NOTHING to do with your fucking performance! ""HOWS ABOUT THE PERFORMANCE OF "THE CHILD?" Assholian! W-H-A-T, Ya gonna loose Yer 'Ferrerri?'</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> IF- I am coming accross 2 strong, sue me! THERE are NO priorities LEFT! IF, { and I have } I got popped for anything, I'd get slammed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! These fuckers, get AWAY with MURDER! If the SYSTEM don't git 'em, one of their OWN, ceases their will to carry ON! SEE what I'm sayin'?</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> Allow me, to give us an example. The 'Macys' commercial! A-L-L these STAR RIDERS, have conglomerated, to suck out our $$! The commercial, shows, that their TOKEN FLOOZIE-'Jessica Simpson,' whom. last year, urged PEDIPHILES, to take to "PIZZA HUTT." TODAY, she's The idiot whom pulls the plug from their Magnificent Display! ""MY BAD,"" she states for the Nation to see???!!!!! Yeah!- I will urge MY DAUGHTER to have such short , shorts and short brains- - - - -and git PAID 4 IT! FUCK your stupid boobies! I wouldn't nibble her, if she was The Last morsel on EARTH!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#333399 size=4> I appreciate to state THIS in "MY" Book. I'm not bothering ANYone, whom doesn't wish to flush a SOUND turd! Told Yas' , best BATHROOM Reader, Ya ever saw!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1078050975516719077.post-82738413259226880032007-11-13T01:51:00.000-08:002008-10-09T13:37:23.192-07:00I am devistated!<P> <A href="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCYYYYYYYYUS" target=_blank><IMG height=85 alt="Rain Cloud" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/28/28_2_8v.gif" width=110 border=0/></A> I have done a terrible thing! I have allowed "2" Xtra cats to reside with us. THIS, has put a hurtin' on my house, my finances and my emotional wellness!</P>
<P> At 2:14 A,M,, this morning, I was awakened by the crashing of objects in my house. As I got up to TRY to fix this, THE only thing I could come up with, since it's warmish outside, was to put the culprit OUT! IT WAS DRY, THEN!!!!!!!!!</P>
<P> In order to calm down, I jumped on to the computer, and, as I made my way to bed, realized, it had begun to POUR!</P>
<P> I flew to the door, and called to the newest , feline member, thinking I had made my point to him. He did NOT come wheb I called out , into the wee night! This CHILD is cold and wet, somewhere, due to my impatience:( I feel evil and terrible! I WOULD have grabbed the smaller of the two, for, 'Frankie,' is the cat from H, E, double toothpicks! However, the bugger escaped me too often:(.SOOOOOOooooooo, I grabbed the one I could, to ensure some peace.</P>
<P> I* , am Devistated, and appauled at myself! I ask PRAYERS, for 'Rascle.' , and my family, for the Girls are gonna LOSE IT, whence they arise!<BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><A href="http://smiley.smileycentral.com/download/index.jhtml?partner=ZSzeb112_ZCYYYYYYYYUS&utm_id=7920" target=_blank><IMG src="http://www.smileycentral.com/sig.jsp?pc=ZSzeb112&pp=ZCYYYYYYYYUS" border=0/></A></P>"What I Think, IF, anyone Cares"http://www.blogger.com/profile/04676219436663825963noreply@blogger.com0