it'sdWhat I think, IF, anyone cares.: I HAVE ' FAITH, ' YET I DOUBT.

I'M NOT , QUITE SURE, IF YOU CAN, MAKE, A-N-Y , SENSE OF THIS BLOG IN ME BOOK!

SINCE, 'THIS,' PORTAL, IS ONE OF ME ' ' ONLY, ' ' WAYS OF GETTING THINGS OUT , I AM "GOING TO GIVE IT A TRY! " { SO FAR, SO GOOD:) }

I WAS ASKED, THIS EVENING , IF , I BELIEVED IN , 'MAGIC?!' I RESPONDED, "YES." " " TELL ME , ALL YOUR THOUGHTS ON , GOD?!!" ""AM I VERY FAR, NOW?" I FEEL, THAT I'M GETTING NEARER/ FARTHER.

BOTTOM LINE, IS, I LENT MY SONS' DADDY, A COUPLE OF BUCKS, WHOM 'SAID, ' HE'D RETURN IT TO ME, AS WELL AS, TAKE ME TO WORK WITH HIM, " " WEDNSDAY! " " WELL- 'THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN.

{ THE BEATLES, ARE JAMMIN' , NOW. } YA'LL KNOW, I , ROB PETER TO PAY PAUL, IN THE FIRST PLACE. HOWEVER, DURING OUR , 'CHURCH,' SERMON, I WAS GUIDED TO DO WHAT, ALL, IT TAKES, TO ASSIST A BROTHER !!

ALLOW ME TO SHORTEN THIS, FOR , IT'S 2:46, A.M., AND I AM HAVING DIFFICULTY, SEEING, LEST, 'THINKING!'

DURING, THIS EVENING, I FOUND, SOMETHING , WITHIN MYSELF, THAT I CAN, IN "NO" WAY , EXPLAIN ! IN-FRIGGIN' -DEED, I AM ONE WARPED , MUDDER FLUCKER! HOWEVER, I CONTINUE TO LOCATE, IN-ESCAPEABLE " " FACTS, " " THAT, PROVIDE ME WITH ON-GOING HOPES! I, AM, ACTUALLY, A BAND ON THE RUN! " " IF," " HE HAS TAKEN THE $$ AND RUN IT INTO HIS ARM,...I, HAVE PONDERED , WHAT THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH THIS!!

P-L-E-A-S-E, DO NOT GIT ME WRONG!! I, "WAS," A 'MASTER,' OF DECEPTION!!!!!!!! I, PULLED THE WOOLIES OVER, T-O-O, MANY OTHERS' EYES! TODAY, 'THIS DAY,' I HAVE " " NO, " " DESIRE TO PLAY THAT TRAIGHT, AGAIN! THE SCAREY PART, 'IS,' ONE , ACTUALLY 'THINKS,' THEY GOT IT GOIN' "ON??!!!" 'BALDERDASH! " I, -DID!- FACT OF THE MATTER, 'IS,' I'M NOT THAT BURNT, TODAY!!:):) ;)-

OH!, I AM CERTAIN, HE SHALL COME THROUGH WITH SOME , THOUGHT OUT, FANDANGLE TALE!!!!!!!!!! STILL, " " THIS," " TIME, IT FALLLS ON DEAF EARS / SOUL / AND HEART! " " ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' HELP? ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ', "SURE ," I WILL! YET- "NOT," UNTILL, HIS MUFFINS, WISH TO EXTEND, TOWARD , "HIS," WORTH. !!!!!!!!

I, DO 'NOT,' WISH TO JUDGE, "LEST THOU BE JUDGED!" YET, I'VE ALLOWED, 'WAY,' TOO MANY , UN-called for, ASS / SOUL BEATINGS, IN MY LIFE!! "TODAY," I AM SIMPLY, 2 TIRED! I'M A HUMAN , 'NOT,' A BICYCLE! { 2 TIRED :) -}

ELISSA / ZIGGE / SCHIAVONE',
I, ADORE YOU! MOTHER GAIL, AS WELL DO , I , YOU! I REQUIRE SOME, "SOUND," SLEEP.

I, AM NOT PURRRRRRRFECT! THERE, STILL LIES A LOT OF WORK YO BE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YET, I ACHE, AS DEEPLY, AS THE RESTOF "US!" PEACE, BE, UNTO...

I, SUPPOSE, I SHALL ALWAYS, BE TURNING, AROUND!