"RIGHT," Ya got A Bloody, Well Right to say!"

Hello, ALL!

         Ya know...I haven't curled me hair,in QUITE a bit!  I got into this mode, as to, "WHY SHOULD I ?" I go no places , in which to share my adoreableness??!!!                Awe, skrew it!        However, during , this week , I had THE, Most elequent endurable, haveing to do with, "Halloween!" I, was capeble, to SHARE, a 'SOUND,' Gala, with my "Children!"      Little FREAK, that I 'AM,'  A-L-L , THREE of us!, had a DEvine time!

              TOnight, as 'THEY,' slept for School, in the Morn., I took the oppottunity, to chase the NEEDS of the HOUSE!               I showered, I, Cared for the House , and , I am about, READY 4 BED! 

                           WHEN, they git UP, They SHALL, find, a SOUND , Residence!!!!!!!! It's NOT, because, I require it!!!!!!!!!! I'm, just sick and Friggin' TIRED, of being , sumewhat, ALONE!

 

                          It, REALLY, Peeves me off! I go to sleep, with a CHAIR, along , side of MY bed, as to ALLOW, my CAT,  { he is 13 YRS, old } so that he can BE!!!!!!!~ a Cherished soul , whom I MAY cuddle, during the NIGHT??!!!}              THIS       , is ludacreise'!

 

          WAITE', it gits WORSE!As you KNOW!-  -  - I 'AM,' still married! SOOooooooo, as TOMORROW , IS Friday, my husband, is 'OFF,' of work!            SOOOOOOoooo, I invited him , for 'AFTERNOON DELIGHT??!!!'  what, the fuck, IS wrong WITH me????????????

 

                   "yes," I AM , HORNIER than a "Viking," in Heat!    BIG, friggin' DEAL!!     " " WHY " " MUST, this BE ANYthing?????????????  For REAL, fer real, 'THIS,' is just a sumpthin! A-N-D, FOR REAL- "it," has NOTHING to do WITH, " " penet4raton! " "          "IF," you REALLY, wish to KNOW , sumpthin', - - - - - """SKREW"""the depth of SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!        Ya REALLY, WISH, 2 KNOW, WHAT I crave??????????         I Deeply, Desire to have found, a soulMATE!  "IF," ""THIS,"" is ODD, to you, I suppose , WE- Have NOTHING ELSE to SAY to one another??!!!!!!!!  However, IF, anything makes ANY sense "2" you, .........I WILL, do mBEST, to CARE, for, NOT , ONLY myself, BUT U2!                     It, REALLY SUCKS, having NOone , to be able to HOLD, whilst one sleeps!

 

            IT, has NOTHING to do with, what one FEELS is misssing!!!!!!!!!!!  THE, COOL Thang, IS...one CAN!!!!, go," Forward!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ONE, of THESE days, since, I HAVE taken CARE ...I, 'SHALL,' FIND, SOMONE!       Since, I 'AM,' such a contrl FREAK, "this," may BE a problem. HOWEVER, 'whenI DO,' - "I SHALL, know my companion is TRUE!"

                I have a lot, to offer! For REAL, 4 real, it would appear, "I," STILL," HAVE Vast , amounts, to LEARN!

               It IGNIGHTS ME, to be Able , to share, what I AM Feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!  As I SAID, as THE "Title," of the BOOK, was, " What ITHINK, ""IF,""ANYone Cares!"  'THE, Reason,'  I began "IT, WAS, I, was sick and frigin' TIRED, THAT, JYST because was, because we DIDN'T have a bunch of $$$$$$$, didn't MEAN, WE, didn't hae SOMETHING to  SAY!~!!!!!!!!!!!! Besides, PERHAPS- someONE, UNDERSTOOD, How someone , ELSE , FELT- as THEY- were NOT, alone! "THEY, NEVER will be.'

I'm in the midst of a trauma...

    I shall warn you , NOW...I'm not in the greatest of moods.

          'Halloween,' is ONE of me flavorite seasons! BUT- due to a few circumstances, I'm a bitter , medium - aged biotch! 

          Last week, our WATER was shut off for a few , LONG days. I found , myself, embarrassed and frightened. They restored it, Sat., due to my Childrens dad and an old Friend. NOW, I H-A-D to Promise their Dad, I'd pay him back, as soon as I got The ONLY $$ I would have, for the week, as it is our CHILD SUPPORT. {as I git weapy } it was ALL we'd HAVE, and, I have NO FOOD, to feed our Cats??!!!

          " " BY THE WAY, 'MOTHER NATURE', HIT, DURING THE WATER OUTAGE!! " "   i WAS A hAPPY  TROLLE'! n-o-t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

           i SMOKE!   It appears, I shall have 12 ciggies, to hold me , untill , Monday:(   LMAO- at LEAST , Mother Nature, has gone back to sleeping, for the rest of the month.

            Allow me to add to this, a bit later. I'm having a mind block. "CLEARLY, I REMEMBER , PICKING ON THE,LITTLE       GIRL, SEEMED A HARMLESS, LTTLE FUCK!" DADDY DIDN'T GIVE AFFECTION, AND, THE GIRL, WAS SOMETHING, THAT MARILYN WOULDN'T W-E-A-R!"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""   SEE WHAT i MEAN!

'Emenence Front.'

"Why don't you come and join the party, Dressed to Kill?!"

     Strange first line, do you NOT agree? lol-

           This day, many things are toppeling through my mind. Some, quite nifty, SUM, kinda bogus!  I git kinda whacky, this time of Year:):)-   As the seasons emerge, the changes, continue to bring about, alter kinds of moods / thoughts / ETC.!  Shit, it's all about CHANGE! ANYHOW-   as my time continues to progress, WAY, Cool things, are happening in my existance.  The Girls, seem to have begun a resound year, at school. EVEN BETTER!, we continue to make GREAT progress, within our family ways, connects, LOVE! I watch them , finding solace and security, within our Castle / lives! THIS- makes me elated. Cuz-  -  -- I HELPED!  . YES, I'm becoming , someone, whom I Wished to be, long ago, YET- Never thought I could muster??!!! { don't git it twisted! i'm still a coloureful weirdo! } BUT- my heart and soul, have been , constantly excercising, and the more I put 'em to work, for the RIGHT reasons, the STRONGER I am becoming.

          To be, Quite honest, I'm not so sure, WHY?!!  My leg and back, are in GRAVE discomfort. I HAD a friend, whom hooked me up with some relief, but, she seems to have kicked me to the curb, on that side. SOOOoooooo, one would THINK, I'd begin the downward spiral?!!  Fact of the matter, it pisses me off so much , { the pain } that I just git feistier. THANK GOD!

              This weekend, was a prominent joy! Many blessings, came our way, and the Girls and I, spent Quality time, snuggling, and happy! The weather, round here, is begining to dip into the chillies, and we marveled, in wraps of blankies and love, whilst watching inspirational flicks on the tube. We nibbled, snuggled, and , EVEN had our comode fixed, with the help of their Daddy! The little bugger, even hooked the Cherubs up, with a phenominal, 'French Toast Breakfast!  It's kinda spookie, he, took TWO DAYS, from his hectic life, and prepared his succulent , Chicken, HOMEmade Soup! { He did this at HIS house.} HOWEVER, he toted it all the way to OUR house, to share with our Children! LEMME TELL YA... Megan has, just about killed the entire vat!!!!!!!! Ashley 'Peach Pitt', won't touch it??!!! { she's QUITE picky!}               NOW- the Girls and I, have been relying on a bucket, for , close to THREE WEEKS, in order to flush our troubles away! And it makes me giggle my ass off, as , " " when its brown , flush it down" " arrives, and the bucket is taking a MUCH, Needed nap! LOL   Tee -Hee...

LIFES' SIMPLE PLEASURES...

                   I happen to be, a wee, bit leary, though. During the hours, after he left, he called, like, 5 times. Periodically, of course, BUT... , and I am wondering, IF, he aches for the family way, as much as WE DO??!!! There's a lot of shit, about us, that we ARE going to lock horns about! He's , as MUCH of a control freak, as I AM! AND- neither one of us, are gonna back down , very easily!!!!!!!!!!!! YO!, I'll give it a shot, BUT- 'tis NOT gonna be easy 4 me!    !!  I've gone through TOO much, somewhat alone, to have me rug adjusted! justtellin'ya-

              "we had love, at 6 A.M., yesterday morning... he woke me up, with a freezing hand on my nipple..."

          I'm not , quite sure, whom adored the commune , MORE? he or me... Though I gotta tell Ya, as , ALWAYS, we "FIT ", DE-lightfully!

 

                   As I grew up, my family, was not as kindred, as I would have liked. Two, of my flavorite shows, was, 'The Waltons', and 'Little House.'       TRADITION...IS, one of THE , Most Beautiful , POWERFUL,Family traits, I have ever studied! My family, was riddled with power tripps, vindictiveness, and solidarity , { not the cool kind! } I WISH, to instille virtues and MEANING, a Memorable part, of MY Childrens'  "Childhood." SHIT, Alan and ""I"" have plagued them with ENOUGH bullshit! 'Tis my TURN, to enhance the L-O-V-E! And, Ya wish to know , sumthin'. they are begining to RADIATE! The little Cherubs, are attracting GOOD vibes and recognition, from Friends, as well as," THEMSELVES! " DO NOT FALL OVER!,  but the parental units, are somewhat pleased with ME, as well!  whoknew...

                I went for a walk, at 6:40 A.M., this morn.! It was brisk and BEAUTIFUL. NOPE, it wasn't 4 drugs , nor beer:):)- 'twas 4 "cigs!" STILL- I felt, More alive, than I could have imagined. GOD, provided me a chance,to touch base with my neighbor, whos MOMMIE, isn't feeling well. THIS, provided me , with a SINCERE opportunity, to offer my love and support, which, TODAY- I can ACTUALLY provide.    . It's a FANTASTIC realization! I'm not ONLY , talking the stuff, BUT- Today, I am capeable of walkin' IT!    PLEASE, don't forget to love yourselves, when it's YOUR TURN TO!

             

I HAVE ' FAITH, ' YET I DOUBT.

  I'M NOT , QUITE SURE, IF YOU CAN, MAKE, A-N-Y , SENSE OF THIS BLOG IN ME BOOK!

          SINCE, 'THIS,' PORTAL, IS ONE OF ME ' ' ONLY, ' ' WAYS OF GETTING THINGS OUT , I AM "GOING TO GIVE IT A TRY! " { SO FAR, SO GOOD:) }

           I WAS ASKED, THIS EVENING , IF , I BELIEVED IN , 'MAGIC?!'   I RESPONDED, "YES."  " " TELL ME , ALL YOUR THOUGHTS ON , GOD?!!" ""AM I VERY FAR, NOW?"  I FEEL, THAT I'M GETTING NEARER/ FARTHER.

           BOTTOM LINE, IS, I LENT MY SONS' DADDY, A COUPLE OF BUCKS, WHOM 'SAID, ' HE'D RETURN IT TO ME, AS WELL AS, TAKE ME TO WORK WITH HIM, " " WEDNSDAY! " " WELL- 'THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN.

              { THE BEATLES, ARE JAMMIN' , NOW. } YA'LL KNOW, I , ROB PETER TO PAY PAUL, IN THE FIRST PLACE. HOWEVER, DURING OUR , 'CHURCH,' SERMON, I WAS GUIDED TO DO WHAT, ALL, IT TAKES, TO ASSIST A BROTHER !!  

                                                 ALLOW ME TO SHORTEN THIS, FOR , IT'S 2:46, A.M., AND I AM HAVING DIFFICULTY, SEEING, LEST, 'THINKING!'

                DURING, THIS EVENING, I FOUND, SOMETHING , WITHIN MYSELF, THAT I CAN, IN "NO" WAY , EXPLAIN ! IN-FRIGGIN' -DEED, I AM ONE WARPED , MUDDER FLUCKER!  HOWEVER, I CONTINUE TO LOCATE, IN-ESCAPEABLE " " FACTS,  " " THAT, PROVIDE ME WITH ON-GOING HOPES! I, AM, ACTUALLY, A BAND ON THE RUN! " " IF," " HE HAS TAKEN THE $$ AND RUN IT INTO HIS ARM,...I, HAVE PONDERED , WHAT THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH THIS!!

             P-L-E-A-S-E, DO NOT GIT ME WRONG!! I, "WAS," A 'MASTER,' OF DECEPTION!!!!!!!!  I, PULLED THE WOOLIES OVER, T-O-O, MANY OTHERS' EYES!  TODAY, 'THIS DAY,' I HAVE " " NO, " " DESIRE TO PLAY THAT TRAIGHT, AGAIN! THE SCAREY PART, 'IS,' ONE , ACTUALLY 'THINKS,' THEY GOT IT GOIN' "ON??!!!" 'BALDERDASH! " I, -DID!- FACT OF THE MATTER, 'IS,' I'M NOT THAT BURNT, TODAY!!:):) ;)-

            OH!, I AM CERTAIN, HE SHALL COME THROUGH WITH SOME , THOUGHT OUT, FANDANGLE TALE!!!!!!!!!! STILL, " " THIS," " TIME, IT FALLLS ON DEAF EARS / SOUL / AND HEART! " " ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' HELP? ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ' ', "SURE ," I WILL! YET- "NOT," UNTILL, HIS MUFFINS, WISH TO EXTEND, TOWARD , "HIS," WORTH. !!!!!!!!

           I, DO 'NOT,' WISH TO JUDGE, "LEST THOU BE JUDGED!" YET, I'VE ALLOWED, 'WAY,' TOO MANY , UN-called for, ASS / SOUL BEATINGS, IN MY LIFE!! "TODAY," I AM SIMPLY, 2 TIRED! I'M A HUMAN , 'NOT,' A BICYCLE!  { 2 TIRED :) -}
                     

 

                ELISSA / ZIGGE / SCHIAVONE',
I, ADORE YOU!  MOTHER GAIL, AS WELL DO , I , YOU!  I REQUIRE SOME, "SOUND," SLEEP.

               I, AM NOT PURRRRRRRFECT! THERE, STILL LIES A LOT OF WORK YO BE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  YET, I ACHE, AS DEEPLY, AS THE RESTOF "US!"                PEACE, BE, UNTO...

 

               I, SUPPOSE, I SHALL ALWAYS, BE TURNING, AROUND!

 

P.S.- HAPPY , HEALTHY, HALLOWEEN!

MY FAITH HAS SEEN ME THROUGH!

       'TIS A WONDERFUL BEGINING , TO THIS DAY. I AM A VERY FORTUNATE FREAKAZIOD / WOMAN!! 

        TODAY, MY ASHLEY, GITS HER SCHOOL PICTURES TAKEN. THE 'LORD,' GAVE ME LOVE IN MY HEART / SOUL, TO PRIMP HER , WONDERFULLY :)   I COULD TELL, SHE FELT , AS SPECIAL, AS SHE IS!

        MEGAN, WHOS PICS, WILL BE TAKEN, DAY AFTER. WELL, SHE WAS FEELING A BIT CAST ASIDE. SO- I NURTURED HER, TOO!!  WHEN MY BABIES, DEPARTED FOR SCHOOL, THEY LOOKED AT ME, WITH THESE LOVING EYES, OF HOPE, SECURITY, AND HAPPINESS. I DON'T THINK, I HAVE EVER FELT SO COMPLETE?!!  WE MAY NOT BE FILTHY RICH, BUT, HEAVEN KNOWS, WE GOT IT GOING "ON!"

         MY SONS' DADDY, ELTON, AS I WROTE, IS HANGIN' AROUND FROM TIME 2 TIME. I'M TAKING IT , V-E-R-Y EASILY, { BEST I CAN } , AND , SIMPLY BEING A 'FRIEND!'  YOU KNOW ME, I TEND TO WISH TO GIT ALL "WISHY-WASHY," AND , HAVE THE URGE TO PUSH THE L-O-V-E SHIT, TO THE LIMITS.  { SO FAR, SO GOOD }  I'M JUST HERE 4 HIM! WHAT ALL OCCURS, WILL OCCUR, BUT, FOR NOW, HE JUST HAS TO GIT HIS FEET ON THE GROUND, AND  TAKE IT SLOW, SINCE , HE'S FRESH OUTTA PRISON. THE MAN, HAS EVERY LEGAL, EAGLE, BREATHING DOWN HIS BACK. "I," SHOULD ""NOT,"" BE ANOTHER!

        MATTER OF FACT, THE POSSIBILITY , EXISTS, THAT HE WILL PICK ME UP, SO AS TO ASSIST HIM ON A PAINTING JOB, HE HAS AQUIRED, E-A-R-L-Y, TOMMORROW MORNING. { IF, IT IS GODS' WILL, IT'LL HAPPEN! } YESTERDAY, AS HE EXTENDED THIS OPPORTUNITY, HE SAYS TO ME, "YOU GOT SOMETHING ELSE TO WEAR, THAN THAT KINDA STUFF?"         I REPLIED, " YEPPERS, I HAVE THE PURRRRFECT OUTFIT!!"   

             { JUST BETWEEN YOU & ME, I CURLED MY HAIR, "YESTERDAY," SO I'D LOOK PRETTIER .}

         I HAVE, ALREADY, FIXED UP THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE, FIT FOR ST. HALLOWS' WEEN! IT MAKES ME GIGGLE, AND SMILE, FOR, I HAVE BEEN COLLECTING THE GARB, FOR A FEW YEARS, NOW, AND , IT'S QUITE ALL OURS!  GRANTED, WE DON'T HAVE INFLATED , HUGE , GLOWING ATTRACTIONS! BUT- IT IS , VERY NICE, AND WE APPRECIATE IT. THE SAME GOES FOR OUR "CHRISTMAS " DECOURE'  ! AS THE YEARS GO PAST, WE ADD A SMIDGEN MORE, AND , AS WE DO, WE BUILD MEMORIES, "NOT," JUST MATERIAL, COMMERCIAL BULLSHIT. WE MAY NEED A FEW , NEW LIGHTS, BUT...

               " " LIFES' SIMPLE PLEASURES / TREASURES! " "

         THIS YEAR, I HAVE SECURED ALL THE NECCESSITIES / PAPERWORK / DR.S' ATTENDS, FOR THE GIRLS, AND, ACTUALLY, GOTTEN THEM TO THEIR PROPER NEEDS :) THE SCHOOL YEAR, HAS BEEN OFF TO A 'GOOD START!' MY CHILDREN, HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH FANTASTIC TEACHES / SCHOOL DISTRICT! AND, I AM MAKING SOME COOL PROGRESS, IN TIGHTENING MY WAYS OF GUIDING THEM, AS WELL AS, FOCUSING ON WAYS TO ENHANCE THEIR LEARNING. I'M NOT SUCH A GEEK, WHEN IT COMES TO THAT, THESE DAYS. I, AM GRATEFUL!

         I MUST PREPARE, TO GO TO THE STORE,NOW, SO, I SHALL CONTINUE ON MY WONDERFUL MOOD, A BIT LATER. THANK YOU, FOR BEING THERE, FOR ME TO SPILL MY THOUGHTS AND HEARTFELTS!!  I, SINCERELY HOPE, THAT, ONE DAY, THIS BOOK WILL BE PUBLISHED, , BUT- M-O-R-E ,SO, THAT WHAT YOU READ, WILL PROVIDE YOU, WITH THOUGHTS , FEELINGS, AND SECURITY, THAT NONE OF US, ARE ALONE!  THERE IS, " " ALWAYS " " HOPE AND PROGRESS, AS YOU CAN PLANELY SEE. 

                                   I LOVE YOU.      PEACE BE UNTO...        

What I am feeling.IS, ironic, YET, Monumental!

I despise this coloure! Yet, I have it, emanating from my pores!!

          Ya wish to know, what pisses me off, THE MOST? FAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!   Guess who called, and showed up, at our House? " " ELTON!" "   Yes in Gosh, Darn Deedie, after Mega Months!  He JUST, got out of some sort of Correctional Facility, AGAIN, due  to , { what he says } to be a, "TECHNICALITY!"

            oh, FUCKIN' , yIPPIEEEEEEEEEEE  ??!!!

           Despite the radiant way, he posed himself , OH- by the way, THE , day after his BIRTHDAY!!  I KEPT, my composieure', and remained , SOLID, in my address of him! 

          {{  Lemme tell Ya, it was by the Grace of GOD, for, 4 REAL, I wished to tear him UP! }} His muscles were protruding, his stamina was Complete, and his EYES, were Hypnotic! [ besides, i'm hornier than a Viking in Heat! } Awe, that's , another story.

           If you wouldn't mind, I'd wish to share a FACT, about ELTON, with you. Elton, is a die HARD Heroin JUNKIE! Personally, I gave it a try, and, CAN NOT see the Attraction????? Me, personally, USED to be into the FAST lane.  I, gave it UP, 'cuz I have better things to do with my life.  

             Quite HONESTLY, I can't figure the URGE for a HIGH, that causes one, NOT to complete a sentence??!!! Ya ITCH, like NO bodies buisness, in areas, that are QUITE , embarrasing , to scratch!

            Awe, just fuck it! WHEN, I tried it, it made me , Nil-and VOID?!! NOW, I CAN, understand, that, one wishes to ESCAPE from ANYTHING, they are feeling! " " BEEN THERE, DONE THAT! " " Simply, ONE, Must grow the fuck UP! "Shit Happens!" IT, IS, an INescapeable FACT! From what I have learned, IF, one does it, in abundance, The Body, gets ADDICTED, And, whence it IS removed, it makes one, ACHE, like the devil!

                 NOW, what confuses ME, IS, after a L-O-N-G time, without it, WHY THE FUCK, WOULD ONE , WISH TO START THE REALM OF AGONY, ALL, OVER, AGAIN??!!!

              THE, Only conclusion, { to me }, IS- yer a fuckin' WHIMP! THIS, after the joneses have departed, is the TIME, when YOU git to take the / Your World by Storme, and Throw Down!!!!!!!!!!  Ya squelched the D T's! NOW, IS, the time to BLOSSOM!

         It KILLS me! Elton, is a man, whom TAKES the innitiative, to prune himself, like , { my opinion } that MOST dudes, wouldn't shake a stick at! His TOE-NAILS, are kempt! His Fingernails, ARE styled, and nurtured! On his SECOND DAY OUT, he Chose, to pay ME, a visit, lest, afore, he Made SURE, his balding head was properly shaved and buffed??!!!  THEREFORE, What the Fuck? IS there, Something I'mMissin'?

         Allow me to be, More precise. I, DO NOT do, nor can or WILL I get drugs! SOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooo, my blow jobs, CAN'T be THAT good! { I MUST secure... I do NOT Blow just anyone! } however, Tony taught me HOW to do it, AND, why! All's I did, to Elton, was give him a FOOT massage! O.K., I hooked his back up , too! YO!- I'm good at it:) Basicly, I FEEL, the friggin' Valium, ETC., can go to YOU KNOW WHERE, " " IF " ", EVERYONE, had Mandatory, FULL body massages! At LEAST, thrice a month!  O.K., I'm going out on a limb, here... FUCK WAR! Get the Countries together, and MASSAGE! Skrew the stupid bullettes! YEP, I, AM my own Person.

            Ya know, I, WAS, where Britney Spears is. She's a little girl, with the World, THROWN in her face! Personally, I'd appreciate to SLAP THE PIUSS outta her Mom!  WHY, are peoples, THROWN to the WOLVES?? So, Fucking WHAT, if yer a starlette! IF, people are SO Starved for something to look at, Perhaps they should git their OWN lives!! She's a little woman! ALL, she was shown, is to shake her coochie, and hang out with OVERPAID , Other whenches, that have NOTHING better to do, than  to git ANNIAHLATED, and dance naked on tables in POSH clubs??!!!   JEE, who wishes to fuck me, this night? WHERE , did the treasures of , Tradition / Family Galas / something called, PRIDE, GO??!!!

           I WATCHED my Daddys wife, get SUCKED into, a life , where ALL she required, WAS , WHAT the fucking LABLE said it was!  Personally, when MY Babies bring home a picture from School, that they made, 'I , frame it, and hang it, proudly, where a-l-l can see! ' Daddies wife, would NEVER have it, for it CLASHED with "Picaso!" Perhaps, that's Brits / Eltons' disfunction?!  IF, Yer gonna have Children, Perhaps, one should NOT rent 'em out. Gail, wished The Best 4 me! I, was just, too rebellious and tossed, to realize it!  Sign my ASS, Marilyn! Maybe Ya can sell it.

          I'd ADORE to SEE, EJ's Family, stick their Hearts in, to hold and nurture him, like they NEVER did! SURE, Jack, his dad, sold pot, so much, that EJ., could snag some to SEEM like a Big SHOT, by passing it to the other Children, whos parents didn't give a fuck. YEAH- besides pot smokin', Jack shot up Cocaine / ETC.!  The mutha skrewed every bitch he could git his hands on. The fucker, TRIED, EVEN, to bang ME! So- I kissed him, and then punched him in the face.he LEFT!  Alls he wished to do, was score his SONS woman??!!! What a , pathetic imbosile!            Later...

If I don't SHARE, I shall Explode.

  I'm UNsure, and Quite vulnerable. There are people, whom are going to wish to spank me, after reading this!! Ashley, has asked her Daddy, for some needed books, and he plans on delivering them , tomorrow, whilst the Children are at School. Our commode is on the fritz, so he is going to take a peek at it.  USUALLY, he would deposit the stuff, in the mailbox I built, and scooted. However, he's coming IN, and , it's been AGES, since I've been able to encompase him. SHIT, I haven't enveloped ANYone, in , I can't recall when!!!

                 We spoke on the phone, a bit, of The subject. It elavated me, and , I bowed my head in shame, that , ALL I could REcall, was, how delightfully, we were able to mesh. WELL, That way, BUT- N-O-T, mentally. 

         Then, Megan called him back, and voiced her feelings, that, ""WHY CAN'T YOU JUST COME HOME AND WE BE A FAMILY?""  Of COURSE, he replied, "I can't, your Mom and I fight , TOO much!!"  I almost had an accident, for, she replied, " THAT'S what parents DO!"  "ALL my friends parents do it, WHAT makes you and Mom any different?" I almost soiled myself!

          SAD part of it, IS, she's RIGHT??!!! Because of finances / bodily statures / menopause /  mid life crunches, ETC., { I feel comercials have a BIG to do on it } she's RIGHT!   Besides the control issues, we are ALL FUCKED up! I was told, that Cassidies' parents, FIGHT, Constantly. What the fuck is wrong with US?? The LORD, allowed us to , not only FIND eachother, but to conceive BEAUTIFUL Cherubs, and all we seem to be able to do, is pick fights with eachother??!!!

                 For REAL, fer real, the separations, merely take a toll on the economy, for , BOTH ousted ones, need depend on the state funds to mask our skrew ups!

         To be PAINFULLY  honest, Alan, is a VERY , 52 yr. old man , whom, is NOT allowing his WIFE to take CARE of him. He asked me for a divorce, THEN, after I said YES, concludes, that it's up to ME to pay 4 it??!!!  THIS, only shows me, THAT, it's not ACTUALLY, what he wishes!

         I, did NOT , say "I DO." JUST to back OUT!!!!!!!!!!!  IF, he needs me, it's MY loyalty, to CARE for him! "I," Am his WIFE!!!!!  He tells me, on the phone , this evening, that his pecker doesn't work anymore. BIG FUCKING DEAL! my EMOTIONS ARE AWRY, AS WELL! Jeepers, we're BOTH going through the changes of LIFE! Alan, get a grip. NONE of US, got it goin' ON!

        Pardon, if I have stated too, much. However..."out of the mouths of Babes!"  tyVm;)-